Urge is strong today

On day 20, that's the good news. But I got really frustrated with the wife last night , nothing big, she just wanted to watch her show, I wanted to say why can't you watch it upstairs , but I just went upstairs myself. The reason I let it get to me is because I just want to MO, I don't even need the porn. I guess I got easily irritated but I didn't want to start an irrational argument. I've been doing alright but I have my bad days, and today I just want to let one out, an o that is. I don't know why because I could just initiate sex with my wife, but I don't want to do the work ! ( I know sounds lazy, but we don't have quickies ). Since I'm trying to cut the masturbation out its very frustrating. I know my brain is used to all the stimulation but I'm feeling really sluggish lately, and sometimes on auto pilot. It's a different auto pilot then when I was pmoing all the time , it's like auto pilot without the brain fog, kind of letting the days pass by. I have energy at times and I've been doing a lot more around the house. I just want to see how I would be without it in my life. Sometimes I get the urge to watch porn, but now the urge to masturbation is winning the race. Tomorrow will be three weeks since the pmo, and I want to make it. Need some words of wisdom to keep me going guys..... thanks

 

I know it does sound weird for me to use that word lazy, but I guess what I was trying to say is sometimes I just want to bust a nut without putting much work into it, and that's how I felt last night. Whenever I felt that way in the past I would just masturbate and now I don't want to do that. As far as asking my wife for head, she's pregnant right now so that's like playing with fire .
You're right though I feel much better after resisting an urge, small victories are worth more than the regret after relapse.