*Trigger Warning* Have any of You Rebooted and Still had "Non-Vanilla" Sexual Tastes?

Sexual energy taps into our emotional ocean. It's messy. Grow up around an idol who's abusive to other people or puts up with unnecessary abuse from another... and its enough for the young mind to channel their sexual growth around the vines of emotions that they feed growing up. Now fantasies revolve around being sadistic to another or being submissive. It's inner turmoil exacted into an emotional ocean that breaks off and forms rivers of sexual flow. It's unnatural - addiction. And recovery from addiction is also unnatural. What is natural?! I believe whatever resonates with your inner longings. But some of our longings are shaped by traumatic events. So vanilla or kinky - I think, to the awakened self, the more kink you are into - either the deeper you are into the middle of that ocean or the more you know about yourself and what you want. My kinks are not stagnant - I change them, just like going from 0 to 60 isn't possible instantaneously, it's never the same feeling at different stages of experience and life. I personally want rarity of experience - makes me appreciate them more. As long as I'm immersed and feel wholly true to myself, I don't care what the world labels as kinky or vanilla.

 

I still do but I haven't found anyone kinky enough for that yet. Plus I'm more worried about why I wasn't able to maintain an erection last time.

 

I don't have any more porn related kinks, the things that would only happen in porn that I would want to try out. also, the need to be commando when I am sleeping went away, that is an observation I made a few weeks ago. so after quitting p, of course I still have fantasies but they are not so wild like they used to be.

 

I don't know if they go away but I need mine to go away, they're so unhealthy and unnatural and I feel embarrassed and ashamed about them. I couldn't even get excited about "normal" porn anymore, I've found its a gateway drug. But there's one good thing. When I was at 27 days I relapsed to "normal" porn so thats a good sign.

 

Who would ever set out to just be "normal"? What is normal? Missionary style sex for the rest of your life? Variety is the spice of life and unless you're planning on dating a prude (they're never any fun in bed), I wouldn't worry to much about your fetishes or kinks. No girl or boy, depending on your preference, is going to want the same exact sex, the same exact way forever. Cut yourself some slack. Embrace your desires and if you happen to find a partner who is willing to try some of these things with you then you're lucky and if not you can always have your imagination. There's nothing wrong with desiring something, it's what you do with that desire that causes people problems.

 

That's the case most of the time. My "tastes" are literally dangerous for my health though.

 

Ohhhh, then disregard. Safety first.