feeling the need for relationships

I know 10 days is not that long. It differs from person to person.

I wanted to believe in Nofap. I wanted to experience something that would make me want to quit porn.

Every relapse was due to the fact that my brain starts to make me forget about my reasons. it makes me believe that porn is not even an addiction.

Yesterday I started craving pornstars. like actually craving. I was shocked. still I relapsed. I was flatlining which I did not believe was true until I saw it.

However, even though I relapsed, I had a very weird feeling today. when I was talking to people I make this intense interesting eye contact. I was very smooth and calm and not anxious. it felt amazing.

I feel like I needed emotions in my life. Porn stripped that from me, I am enjoying people and I don't want to stay in the house.

Another thing is I am doing cold showers. and god damet; it helps alooooot with handling stress.

FYI u need to do cold showers, its the most beneficial thing ever.

Stay strong.

 

Thanx man . Just git of cold shower . Im not doing ice cold water , though i dont leave before 5 minutes . Tomorrow i will do the 7 mins showers . Everytime i adapt more , i feel that i am adapting to harsh conditions in the real world .
I hope it cures my anxiety along with PMO