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Idk what to do anymore, my wealth and addiction have gotten worse.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by TimeToquitFolks, Sep 13, 2019.

  1. I am sorry dad, I am really sorry mum. i have not grown into the man you wanted me to be dad. I am sorry. I have failed you, i am not the man you raised me to be. Treat my family with respect. Since you died back in 2002, I was only 4 years old. Not a day goes by I miss you. You must feel disappointed at me for wasting my life away. You worked very hard to provide for us when you i was younger, cutting patateo in cold water in a factory to feed us. You were the star dad. I failed you. Everything you did for me to have this life and I have failed you. I am so sorry, I cant even put this into words how sorry I am. Porn took over me. I was 11/12 when I accidently clicked onto porn back in 2012 I did not realise how bad of a mistake I made. I wish I could get a second chance at life. I ruined my relationships with mum, my brother and sisters. Sorry to all of you. I wish i was a better man and the man you wanted me to be raised as. My mum cryed to wish i would become the man she wanted me to become, but porn took everything away from me. All my life, it took until I could not do it anymore. I cannot live life normally anymore, every day I would watch porn, masturbate and sleep. Night after night, I watched porn because of my addiction, it would not let me quit, it just forced to me to watch night after night. Now it has taken a toll on my health, i am severly overweight and now think i might have develop heart problems. I have to deal with heart pains, it is because I am fat, I dont know cuz I am really scare of finding out the truth about my health. All I wanted was to be fit, take care of mum and provide a little to the family. I want to do that, but I dont know what to do anymore, my ocd has taken over me and my mind feels restless. it cant take it anymore with the porn, masturbation and organisms. I want to change, but i fear my health because of porn.
    Cant think of anything current else to right now.
     
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  2. Wuzzaap

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    First of all , u is 21 right ?

    That means u have much to look up to . First thing u need to move on, and instead of beating urself up about bad past experiences , start learning from them .

    Soo what u fat ? How many people in the world went from obesity to being very fit ?

    Instead of beating ur self up . Put a target that u is going to lose a certain weight and see ur progress . Do u want to be fit at 23 or be more fat ? (Think about this)

    Number 2 u need to quit porn . Quit while u can . I was like u when i was 21 and now am 23 with way more to look up-to. Quit porn and enjoy life or otherwise u will be depressed until u die .

    Pain is temporary , after pain always comes the best .
     
  3. Discouraged

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    don't worry about all these people going months without masturbation.

    you just need to make it about 2 weeks and everything resets. that said 2 weeks can feel like eternity if you are really addicted.

    fasting is really the only way to reset the brain. once you are addicted, everything you eat goes to your sexual system. you have to reset that part.

    also, you have to understand the relationship between inflammation and sexual arousal. try taking an anti inflammatory
     
  4. Carbon Icon

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    Ishee, man your in a bad place, but - THINGS WILL GET BETTER - if (and only if) you do the work.
    You can recover from this addiction. You can change your lifestyle to be healthy and trim.

    I suggest you do the following;

    1. take all electronics out of your bedroom - computers, video games, cell phone, tv, everything. Pack it up, tape the boxes shut, put it away somewhere (the attic or something)
    2. clean your room - get rid of the clutter - clean yourself
    3. Go to an SA or SAA meeting near you (keep going)
    4. Get an accountability partner for daily check in

    If your willing to do the work I would be willing to be your AP and help you get onto the right track.
     
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  5. Discouraged

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    i am older and I got addicted to porn when it came out on VHS tapes

    i would at least have to go to a store and rent a video, alot more involved than just clicking a link on my computer by accident.

    totally the most evil thing, that 11 year olds can get addicted to porn that easily, hard to believe we are ruled by people who are paid by these monsters.

    this addiction totally destroyed my life, or what there was of it. not that it was a great life but i sure as hell could have been a lot better without porn.

    but even with VHS addiction i would drive a long way just to get a vid, i mean i can't imagine it being just one click away back then,

    plus , the videos back then the women werent nearly as erotic, beautiful. that seems to be to be a big part of how stimulating it is. these girls in the porn nowdays, when you got tens of thousands of vids, you can find a perfect 10 everytime, doing exactly what turns you on, it's LETHAL!

    I don't even get why the fuck i even enjoy watching another dude have sex with some beautiful girl, that i could probably get if i had stopped wacking off. it's to the point that it's totally unconscious. it's like nicotine addiction, heroin but worse.

    anyways, try this. try memorizing a list of things. anything, i will memorize list of best sellers, or drudge headlines. you will be amazed at how much willpower this gives you.

    also a cold shower gives you incredible will power too, but i got liver problems, and cold showers about kill me
     
  6. Thank you every single one of you. You are providing me with support and giving to hope. I dont know why I have heart problems and pains. Could it because of being really fat or weak mucles. Dont know about palpitations. Man what has porn done to me.

    Any good workouts routines for me beginner stuff. I have weights and treadmill at home.
     
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  7. g2stop

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    Just start simple with weights 5 reps 5 sets per exercise - as many compound exercises as possible.
     

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