I'm just back after a 2 day PMO binge?

Like all addicts we will find a way of feeding our habit. Your subterfuge with your grandfather displays a level of cunning on your part. This too is a trait of addicts.
I relapsed last Thursday and have been unable to stop since! After a relapse I lose all control for around a week. Then through exhaustion and shame I stop. Or sometimes I don't stop for six months.
I understand thoroughly what you are going through. The change needs to come from within. Cutting of access to a porn works for while. But we need to win the battle in our minds first. Long before we find ourselves in front of a screen something has gone awry. Each of us needs to find out what this is and overcome it. Take care and stop s soon as possible. Only then can real healing take place.

 

Sorry for the spelling mistakes above. I'm a fairly old guy and I find predictive text very hard to use. This is especially so when I use a tablet.

 

Whatever helps do it. There is no silver bullet. Sadly. Take care pal.

 

Put it behind you bro! You can do this... Ye it get easier after 2 or 3 weeks. I live alone and have many computers, phones ipads TV, super fast internet etc. But the gains Im getting at the gym and overall in my life are worth too much for PMO'ing to pixels bro.

 

Vices come in groups brother. When I was drinking I was completely incapable of any kind of real willpower against porn.
Like was mentioned above, the battle starts before we even begin to search for PMO.
Good on you for the blockers now what are you going to do differently this time. Stop shaming yourself it’s over, you can only move forward.
Why do you wanna stop?
What lead to your relapses?
How will you change this time around?
What habits are you creating to replace your bad one?
Who can you talk to when times are tough?

You got this

 

It's always difficult in the start but as time passes it will be easier for you to resist it by your own.

 

I used to use a blocker, but just like some of you guys were saying, we still find ways around it. Either it was a less graphic form of pornography, or it was done on another device. I ended up getting good for a while, and had the blocker taken off. It is hard to decide whether I want it back because like you guys say, you have to overcome this on your own and you will find ways around the blocker if you are sly enough. What do you guys think? Should I get a blocker with an accountability partner?