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Day 61 After a Year of Relapses

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Mahmojo8, Aug 10, 2019.

  1. Mahmojo8

    Mahmojo8 Fapstronaut

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    I don’t really know how to best explain it but since nofap everything has changed. I have missed a couple days where I watched porn but besides that I don’t think resetting the clock is all that necessary.

    Today I had just finished watching Stranger things and I experienced something that I have never experienced ever before. Don’t worry about spoilers there are none. Finishing up the final episode I broke down crying seeing my favorite characters go. The characters just felt so real to me and I couldn’t believe that it was over. I was crying over a tv show for a bunch of characters that I knew weren’t real and were coming back in a 4th season. All I can say is before nofap I was never able to feel empathy or connect with a character from a tv show or movie. The brilliant storytelling and my attachment to all the characters made me feel human for the first time.

    I used to be so apathetic towards life and even at the beginning of this nofap journey felt that apathy would never go away no matter what. That was my biggest struggle. I used the word “wafting”. I was wafting through life and just waiting for it to be done with at 17! I’m not gonna lie, my life still hasn’t been driven with some relentless new purpose but overall I’ve just been much more happy and content about it. I rarely think any negative thoughts and just find so much more quality in my day to day living.

    Right now I’ve been bouncing around many ideas. I took a class on stocks, just started learning how to drive(because Ive been procrastinating a lot) been learning 3 languages at the same time, getting back into reading the classics, working hard at the gym and my abs, playing piano, saying how I think more and even started to write a little poetry. This only started at day 40. I have great confidence going into college and im looking to start my career as soon as possible. Nofap has been monumental in my leap forward in life atm and I don’t plan to quit any time soon!

    This community is my family and if were ever going live the good life we have to get through the hard times. Everybody needs somebody to pick them up when the going gets rough. We have to be there to pick each other up as a community and I have no doubt that we can achieve anything if we just take a good look at one another see each other as another human being who want the good life just like yourself.

    I know its not a short read but I just want to say thanks to everyone who has helped me make it this far. My best friends who support me. People who are on the forums who encourage me to post and talk about this. Thank you all
     
  2. I think I remember seeing a post a while back about your experience in college, I’m glad Ur finally able to feel and connect with others and especially our emotions. Keep going man! :)
     
  3. Nice to see! Glad things are going well.
     
  4. 09 MJACC

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    Great, keep going man, You are doing it very well, it's nice you feel like a human for the first time, great job. Best of luck!!
     
  5. ForeverChanges

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    Today l was reading an article about how insane is to stop fapping and how healthy is to wank once in a while. Well, everything is ok so far but then this article started saying how unhealthy is to stop masturbating and how people who stops masturbating live in a sort of placebo shit.
    I stopped wanking 40something days ago. And now, Can Someone tell me why l feel so great? Why l feel that my sensitivity is so fucking legitimate. I dont turn into melidrama shit but l have become more compassionate. I get into challenges with fear, yeah, with fucking fear but is not fear of failure. It is fear that can be overcomed bcos l have myself.
    Can Anyone tell me why l dont have that mental maze? Or why l can feel shy but not overwhelmed when l am with people or a girl l fancy?
    Well, l can tell why. It is because l have a newfound strength based in no fucking ego/ wankung narcissism.
    I stopped wanking and, although my days are not always the best l see a way.
    Thats why.
    There are many things that need adjustment but theres a way when in the past there was only daydreaming and fantasizing (or whaterver that word is spelled)
    Feel great about what you are doing guys bcos is the greatest shortcut to happiness.
    Cheers
     
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  6. WildPig13

    WildPig13 Fapstronaut

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    So you did edge every now and then but didn't end up touching yourself or anything? I'm asking it because I'm doing this streak on hard mode but last night I came across a few pecs of nn, fashion models that turned me on but not erotically (more in a sentimental, wishful kind of way) and today I woke up feeling a bit anxious and lazy as if had relapsed... so I might not have to reset my clock at all either I assume?
     
  7. ForeverChanges

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    I think it is more a feeling of
    I think it is more a feeling of guilt.
    We feel lonely in this road.
    Edging is the way to relapse. Dont get that ugly road u know so well.
    Dont forget that the benefits are real bro!!
     
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  8. This is a common issue which connects with no matter what you do you will stumble upon a trigger from to time it’s just something u can’t stopped my resolution is, just move on and don’t connect every single thing to what u seen has to do with the trigger. It will go away don’t trip
     
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  9. Powerous

    Powerous Fapstronaut

    Keep going
     
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  10. MuzzyTheArab

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    Your doing great brother!
     
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