[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

79.

 

Day 216/365

 

Day 2

 

You didn't relapse, you just haven't stopped yet. You need to make a decision and then do whatever it takes.

 

Another day pmo free. My best streak is 56 days. I want to be free from porn and masturbation for good one day at a time. Pmo totally messes up the karma with women.

 

XXI.

 

32/365

 

Day 24/365

 

The 40th

40 days! As a Christian, 40 days is a significant number in the Bible to make a significant transformation. Jesus was in the wilderness 40 days being tested in preparation for his ministry after his baptism. Noah's life was transformed after the 40-day flood. It took 40 days for the Ninevites to repent after prophet Jonah's warning of impending destruction and completely change their ways. Moses went up Mount Sinai and received the Law for 40 days and his life was never the same. David was changed to become a 'man' by the 40-day challenge of Goliath. Prophet Elijah was empowered by God in the wilderness for 40 days after he fell into a suicidal depression. The disciples of Jesus were spiritually energized and transformed in the 40 day period between Jesus' resurrection and ascension to heaven.

Has this been my 40-day transformation? I think so. However, the work has only begun.

 

214 days completed.

 

1313 is not the only one who needs to make a decision and then do whatever it takes. I'm in the same boat. A few hours after posting that I indulged in pmo. I've been sitting on the fence( I.e. not making a decision) and it's making me weak. I want to keep lusting but also avoid pmo and I'm finding out it doesn't work that way. I need to surrender my sexual fantasys and attempts for anonymous sex. I'm a single father of a young daughter and have been without sex since her mother and I split around 7 years ago. I tried a couple of hookups but didn't get aroused and regretted them afterward. I want to enter monk mode until I meet someone I want to spend my life with. That may never happen though because I seem to do better alone. I don't know if I would have any interest at all in women if not for sex. Oh well- starting again.

 

Very inspiring post. I'm shooting for 40.

 

Day 365/365

Finished my year.
This was a specific challenge to avoid p-subs because of feeling alone and depressed.

I’ve been M free for 4 1/2 years now.

Won’t be on NF much longer because I need to work other aspects of recovery.

 

Day 162/365. Ready. Set. Go!

 

relapsed.... but good thing is that i only did m. i didn’t watch p. another good thing is that i feel myself determined and reignited.......

also totally it amounts to 36 relapses in 14 days, after a 14 day hard mode streak

 

Congratulations!!

 

Hey!
Unfortunately, I have relapsed, but I hope you are doing ok.
Well, I feel reignited and hopefully I can start again.

Btw, my suggestion to you is start spending a lot more time with your daughter. It’s the best way to avoid free time for pmo.

Cheers

 

Day 5

 

Day 0/365

 

Greetings, i am a PMO addict. I will post here to log my progress and share my recovery.
Thank you.