THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

You don't want to now. But you break. At that moment nothing else matters. You reduce yourself to an animal, like animals you only want to live in the present.
Before you do PMO, you intend to do it. That's it. Why did you intend to do it if you didn't want to?
Thoughts may not be in control, but its you who makes the intention for every action.

 

Beautifully put

 

will be an honour duel against you.. And shall the best win

 

I am absorbing as much energy from NoFap as it will take to beat you in this battle. Each day I become stronger. Leave the wet dreams at the door! haha

 

That's really a good answer, brother. So, I have to start working even harder to reduce the influence of all those external factors on me. I will see to that.

Got quite some thinking to do !

 

You will need the power.

Had a little panic attack, and to relieve stress, brain is triggerin me with an anxiety urge to relapse. Won’t do it. It is hard but irrational.

 

Eat some dark chocolate. Good for the brain so you can face me with a clear head!

 

Am in day 3 I will soon reach day 5. Hope u can set me up with someone by then. I've gone 30 days before but I relapse so am on day 3 would like to join the duel. Pls @Saiyan123

 

Man it's so hard.
but so am I
(no pun intented)

I'll stay STRONG

 

Day 104/365...everything going all good

 

This is exactly why we need to stop this, so we don't pass this curse onto our next generation. It happens unconsciously. We say and do things that unknowing to us because we have gained a high tolerance to this BS but to an innocent persons can cause damage to them. We need to stand up for the next generation and keep them as innocent as we can for as long as we can.

 

daily check in.. Didn't gave up yet

 

I am OK, finally managed to cut cords with some people in my life regarding whom my gut told me "You're done with them". And I really felt deep inside me that I'm indifferent towards them now. Weekend was grieving process, now I am doing fine At work after holiday. Learning to trust my gut and my body. Regarding @BeastBoyBalling - there's a saying in Lithuanian (probably of Russian origin) "he/she is determined and destroys everything on his/her way as a tank in a battle", so my brother Beast is just like that, cool as a tank, I wouldn't worry too much about him
@Saiyan123 regarding your family situation: I get that your father has lots of suppressed emotions inside him so maybe you could approach him and say you understand his anger and frustration. If that's all he would be willing to talk about - that's ok. Just tell him, dad whenever you feel like you want to talk to me about that, I'm here for you. I think it is important for him to be understood and accepted. It is the same for all of us. And maybe try to discuss things with your mother - not behind your father's back - just ask her to clarify things. It is not good to have this "invisible" elephant in the family I think.
Yesterday I attended family constellation therapy seminar and had a chance to ask some questions. So oh boy there are so many underlying layers within the family system. Now I get that my father's wish to make a man out of me is very closely related to his sorrow and grief when two years after I was born my mother was pregnant with a boy and then he died in her womb maybe a month before labour date. That's one fact, another fact is that his mother had a child with a Polish military officer, he was killed in war and she was rejected by her own family (times were difficult and Russians could have killed the entire family because of the link with Polish soldiers) and had to live on her own and feed her child (his elder brother), so I was told he's unconsciously trying to protect me and give everything he can as a man so I will not have to suffer as his mother did. Really deep stuff. This allows me to accept my father as he is. And my mother as she is. Bc otherwise, if they were different, they would not have attracted each other and I would not have been born into this world.

 

Because we do not love ourselves and our bodies for that matter. Because when we struggle it is way more easier to jerk off/masturbate, drink, smoke, binge on food or on sex, speed, go shopping, use drugs - and the list goes on - and to numb our emotions and get dissociated from ourselves and from our bodies and then hate ourselves and mainly our bodies for how we feel afterwards. Instead of embracing ourselves and our bodies which are there for us even when we cause them to fall ill because of our crazy thinking and unsolved problems which we are too lazy to solve. In yesterday's seminar the lecturer told men are wired to develop their maximum potential outside their home, in the society whereas women are the ones who get to influence the family/home environment. Look what's happening in outside world: men are isolating themselves at home and jerking off in front of the screen whereas women are going outside, trying to be pretty acc to sexuality standards and hunt some men. Now that is pathetic. Really really sad.

 

I am out meeting relatives, it is actually fun and then once i get back self improvement is on again