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My so far dissapointing 30 days mark..

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by dreamer81, Jun 13, 2019.

  1. dreamer81

    dreamer81 Fapstronaut

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    Hello fellow nofap brothers..
    Today I will hit the 30 mark days for the 3rd time in 4 years(3rd time's a charm isn't?)

    A bit of background about myself. 37, single. Started fapping very early probably around 8 years old at porn and bikinis magazines...

    Then came the high speed internet. Started with vanilla, then gangbangs, then bukkakes, then rapes, then zoophilia and cukoldery.

    Failed my last relationship with a great woman because I couldn't cum every time we were intimate. Instead I was sneaky to the toilet to try to fap to some porn.

    I failed the infamous test of trying to fap without porn. I failed with flying colors. That was the last straw. I decided things have to change.

    So far the only benefit I am feeling is high energy. And even this, it is fluctuating.
    I am still depressed, with a lot of anxiety. My little man is like dead and shrinking like it was in black hole. I do get rarely morning woods..but it very weak and unreliable.

    I feel no attraction whatsoever to the opposite sex.

    I have included sometimes with my NOFAP cold showers and I am starting meditation today.

    I am not abandoning and I am willing to hit the 90 days mark hard mode.

    I hope things will improve. Please tell me if you have experienced similar stuff.
     
    Last edited: Jun 13, 2019
  2. Hello dreamer, I am in a similar situation (quite heavy fapper) and from what I've understood it might take a little longer for us to see results.
    So hang in there, one day at a time
     
  3. Gymrat_88

    Gymrat_88 Fapstronaut

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    Hello dreamer this is only day 6 for me.what usually causes me to deceide i wanna stop fapping to porn atleast is the disgust in myself. But this time was because my gf and i had an argument because basically i was a robot to her and wasnt very loving or caring. I know its because of the porn and like you after sex i would still not be satisfied and go do the dirty. Keep going would love to see day 30 like yourself congrats your feelings will come back.
     
  4. Amphibian

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    Keep with it homie. I'm there with you too; I'm 38 and started jerking around age 13 or so, but had a pretty bad addiction.

    Something to keep in mind is that you're healed when you're healed. Be prepared to go beyond 90 days if necessary. I'm resolved to myself that I'm going to have to go way beyond that, but I actually have a peace and comfort in that knowing the payoff will be worth it.
     
  5. LavaMe

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    Great work! Thirty days is a long time when you’ve had a long term habit. Unfortunately thirty days won’t make thirty years disappear. But isn’t your life much better today than it was thirty days ago? You may be experiencing problems you’d wish would go away but you’ve had great success with a huge problem, PMO. I know I use PMO to mask other problems. For me giving up PMO doesn’t solve those problems, but it does allow me to solve them. I couldn’t solve them mired in PMO. Again congratulations.
     
  6. Sounds normal, plus it seems that the longer the issue, the longer the recovery.
    Good news though! Energy is up, and you're taking on new positive habits.
    Thanks for posting.
     
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  7. It is amazing how all the feelings of anxiety and sadness eventually leaves when you stay clean. You will get there bro. After Many years of addiction you cannot recover so fast like that. You will get there. Just put everything behind you, have a strategy to win and wait for results. I have been there. Everything gets better, your mood. Your penis and even your health.
     
  8. Don't worry, I was in a flatline for the first 43 days and appreciated it, because it made it much easier to prevent relapse than now. My flatline also came with high energy, which has now gone back into my libido. I actually like it more the other way, but I'm faithful that brain and body will find their balance, as I continue to recover. You will recover, too. God bless you!
     
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  9. This is very normal! Just keep going and you'll be alright. I think you just need some more time. You can do this! Please don't give up! I believe in you! May God Bless you my friend!!
     
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  10. Spriritofawarrior

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    it takes time. some people feel better by 30 days, for others it might be 5 months.
     
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  11. Wayne Kest

    Wayne Kest Fapstronaut

    You're getting there, it takes time. This doesn't happen overnight. Be more positive, and yes, start meditating. It's gonna improve, don't fret.
     
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  12. Ra's Al Ghul

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    You been doing Nofap for 4 years and your longest streak has been at 30 days, am I correct?
     
  13. Ra's Al Ghul

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    do the dab like Whiz Khalifa
     
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  14. JoiningUniverse

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    30 streak good job man....:emoji_ok_hand:
     
  15. Spriritofawarrior

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    10+ years of spiking your dopamine and watching porn won’t be healed in 30 days. Same with how you didn’t get to where you are now in a short period of time.
     
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  18. Watanabe

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    Nice thread, lots of encouraging and sound advice, it all rings true for me, I was a chronic pmo'er too so it's gonna take time, personally I'm undoing a 35 year habit, but that's ok, like I read elsewhere I'm not so much looking at 30, 90 or 365 days.. (even though they are brilliant achievements) ..I'm never going back to that prison
     
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  19. dreamer81

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    --- !!! Day 40 UPDATE !!! ---

    - I am starting to have random erections. I am able now to have an erection just by fantasising on non-porn stuff. Before, the only way i get hard is to watch P.
    - My energy levels is fluctuating.
    - I am still depressed but not as severer as before
    - Skin and voice improvement.

    I'll take it.

    I'll keep updating on day 60.

    Thanks a lot folks.
     
  20. Great to hear it man, keep going
     
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