30 years of PMO addiction is enough

I won't write everything that has happened to me since I started watching porn when I was 10.

I will only tell you that it has destroyed everything that I cherished. I knew I was an addict for many years now but I never did a serious effort to get over it. I would basically come when I would be feeling down mostly.

Now my dear most lovable soul mate broke up with me because of it and I am devastated. My whole mind is telling me that this is the time to go back to PMO and continue on this destructive path of sissification and the whole sick lot, but I think that right now it's the right time to give up all of this poison.

Only today I realised why this is happening.....Since I was a kid I was feeling I was never enough. I was the best student but still not enough for my parents. I am good looking but I was bullied and was told I am girly, I am sociable but I'm just trying to hide my feeling of inadequacy.

Enough is enough. I have achieved so many things in my life but was always trying to be modest and not arrogant. I was trying to not take credit for my achievements and for what I do, but now it's over. I am a great man and I deserve happiness and love.

The sissy, hypno, porn all that crap is just a defence mechanism for me to escape reality and take my hit until the next time I feel down or inadequate.

Well, this time is over. I am starting on a new life...and my ex whom I love so much will see that the change in me is real.

Thank you all for being here, thank you for showing me that there is another way.

 

Thank you for your supportive messages guys. It's amazing that I look back and realise that for years my new year's resolutions where to stop this addiction but I had never really accepted the fact that it was destroying my life. Now something clicked and it has become so obvious. I can't wait for the new me in a few months

Already, just seeing how much encouragement and how many other people suffer from this poison and have managed to overcome it, I feel so much more confident!

 

I will not go back to that habit. I have never been so determined in my life....
I just cry for the loss that I have incurred upon myself. I know that you cannot reverse the time but how I wish this click inside me had happened a few months before.

We have to let people and young men know about this poison. I don't know through what means or how to summon the courage to publicly say something like that but we must. It's an epidemic that does not only affect us but also our relationships, our dear partners and thus the whole fabric of society.

 

Yes! It's amazing..It's normalisation. The same thing goes for alcohol in many societies. People have come to think that it's normal to get drunk daily...and they think it's normal to escape reality instead of having a partner to share your erotic and sexual self!