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Above all - don´t panic!
It seems that you engaged in dangerous, tempting activity, so we cannot really be surprised, right. My advice is - don´t let that discourage you, learn from it and hop right back into your streak!

 

You have to stop that thought dead in its tracks as soon as it enters your mind. Do not entertain it even a little bit or it will just grow until you cannot control it.

The urges will grow less over time. But even after hundreds of days, they can come back in full force. That is when you must practice mental discipline. If you do not make this a habit, you will surely stumble over and over again.

 

Failure is part of the process. Just make sure not to ever stay down.
Since I have really started, very strong urges just sorta... stopped coming. I had a few small stumbles where I watched some porn after like month in, but it went nowhere further and I switched it off quickly. And I agree with what Tao said: gotta stay on guard, don´t let temptations catch you off guard. Don´t play with sexual thought or a memory of porn you watched when it comes - send it back where it came from. If anything dangerous shows up, don´t look at it, switch it off or go somewhere else.

Primarily though, this success of mine isn´t my achievement. Without the most gracious help of God, I would still be rotting in this hole, unable to free myself on my own. And this is the best advice I can give you: let the love of Jesus Christ enter your life and heal you. That´s something you won´t regret, I promise.

 

No, tell us what you learned from this. That will be your answer.

 

He´s the one who helped me recover from this horrible addiction and then turned my life upside down. NoFap is a nice tool that can help you specifically, but alone it is not enough. He gave me the strength and everything I needed to defeat this slaver. I can tell you, it´s miraculous. I tried to stop before, but made it only 2 or 3 days, then relapsed. Then got discouraged and abandoned NoFap for few months. I believe that I was led there back then already, but I tried just by myself, failed and backed off.

Luckily, God didn´t abandon me and gave me another chance, this time through my only catholic classmate, which I fell in love with (while finding out that she was christian little while before). I acknowledged that she didn´t deserve that addict I was back then, so I returned to NoFap again and went for it seriously. Also continually started praying again, paying attention in church and so on. And... it worked! It was amazing. I was all of the sudden able to say NO to urges. I deleted all the porn I accumulated over those lost years to get rid of as many dangers as I could. My life started improving drastically. I even started working out again, after like year (because I couldn´t keep doing it, because PMO most likely...)!

What else can I say, than that Jesus is the best accountability partner one can find . And He´s available and willing to help anyone.

And Jesus loves you as well. Beyond all understanding. Why would anyone want to respond to that by ignoring Him?

 

it doesn't sound that bad from my point of view. For the future I would set a goal of how long you actually want to go for and what you want to accomplish by doing so. In what way is not pmoing going to contribute to your life? define that. I would define goals so you can measurably judge for yourself how well you are doing.

 

It's not bad as long as you get right back on track. P-subs are better than P, but still should be avoided obviously.

You'll feel better in a day or two.

 

It's not that bad. You only slipped and continue with abstinence that is very good. Shit happens, the most important thing is to not let slip become full blown relapse. Steven Adler once said: "Part of recovery is relapse. I dust myself off and move forward again."

 

Relapses happen. Just remember what you did and what your state of mind was when you relapsed. That way you can learn, and when you get into the state again, which you will, you will be able to recognize that you might relapse and hopefully work a strategy to avoid PMO.

I personally don't consider fapping without P as that bad. there are sources that say you should do this as a test for your PIED. I did it not too long ago and was very happy that I was able to do that. It is something that I absolutely cannot do when I am watching P.