relapsed today and yesterday. Don't really wanna dwell on them I just wasn't actively trying to not relapse. And I wasn't doing much even tho I have a ton of stuff to do and end up doing it at 11 at night. I guess for these 2 weeks I am gonna focus, go tryhard on math and piano. Finals is next week. And I am gonna log in everyday from now on and write something to motivate myself. Doesn't matter how good it is (hopefully the writing will get better) but that I write something. And read other stuff on here. Everyone has some time to live. Little time. Rocks and trees will outlast you by a long shot. You will eventually be gone, existing only in the memories of people who you have affected, good or bad. It's up to you to do something. If you lived every day like it was your last, would porn ever be in it? We take for granted that we would always have the next day, but what if something happens? What is porn? Would that even matter the next day? Porn gives you short term happiness but robs you of time and opportunities. You can live with it but you will regret it later, of the time it took away and of the opportunities you couldn't take, because you wanted a little dopamine, a little bit, one last time of a drug you are addicted to. Snap out of it. Do something else with your time, because your life is too precious to be taken away by porn.
Day 2 I'm grateful to have this forum. I just realized how inclusive it is. It doesn't matter who you are. I went away because I relapsed. I'm beating myself up for it because I went into isolation. But I'm also grateful to be back.
Just kill the deviating thoughts at the initaion.....believe me it is most easy at that time or if you keep on riding sexual thoughts you will surely be carried away and will relapse for sure.
Today 16/90 spending time mostly idle. I am a little afraid that I am may the streak if I continue like this. Today had p thoughts. Most of the day I felt like don't know what to do. Mostly idle. This situation has to change. Here is to habits. Cheers.