I don't feel pleasure from leaving the house and getting sunlight from the outdoors.

Welcome to the club. You have to just do the right thing even if you don't feel like doing it. Depression and anxiety usually worsens when experiencing acute withdrawal symptoms. The important thing is to do what is right and not negotiate with your brain. Here are some useful tips you might find useful:

From POWERLESS TO POWERFUL - 3 KEYS
3 keys that WILL unlock your inner power so you can achieve anything:

1. Learn to listen to your instincts (gut and your heart) -> change is uncomfortable/painful so your brain will always try to talk you out of anything that is going to be uncomfortable
- don't enter any negotiations with your brain (with every thought and action comes the consequence, + or -)
2. Exercise self-discipline -> learning to recognize that self-discipline is a muscle that needs exercising
- self-discipline is about doing something that is going to make you feel uncomfortable, but will have positive consequences
3. Self-belief -> It's about recognizing you are enough and you are worthy (increase self-belief, self-worth-> also by helping other people)
- you must stop with emotions of guilt, self-hatred, regret. Do your best -> that's all you can give in any given situation. Taking small steps in right direction to see self-belief growth
- Never, ever give up. Realize it is never too late for change. if you fall down seven times stand up eight. Never stay down! You're not powerless, you're powerful.

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I develope vitamin D deficiency due to this. I still take medication...

 

how many days since you last PMO'd ?

 

10 minutes sun exposure in T-shirt on daily basis is all it's needed to produce sufficient levels of Vitamin D. Maybe do a bit longer sessions to create some surplus for the days when it's cloudy/rainy.