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NoFap helped changed my life but struggling right now

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by jdgowk, Apr 27, 2019.

  1. jdgowk

    jdgowk New Fapstronaut

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    Ive been watching porn for the last 5-6 years now (im 17). In january I became really depressed because of my social circumstances, I felt i had no one by my side and the fact the I have extremely important but difficult exams coming up that will determine my future and the fact I have a lot of family responsibility. I had always been strong and comfortable being alone majority of the time up until this point. My pmo addiction was at its peak to help cope and get a dopamine rush to the point I was watching categories that I would never have found appealing before like gay, hentai or other extreme types of porn from the amount I was watching. This was the point that I started having anxiety attacks feeling because I knew it was wrong and not me. I was at an all time low

    I then discovered nofap and discovered porn addiction is a thing and its effects on the brain exist . My longest streak was around 34 days that I broke a week ago. (I had a 16 day streak before). I can safely say my life has improved so much, I regained who i am, a whole hell of a lot more sociable and charming than before and im just more all round positive than the last couple months. Nofap did not cure me, it was a tiny step in a journey in discovering myself and trying to figure what I want in life but without it and the community id have been lost.

    However I'm still feeling depressed about my circumstances, my exams are very difficult (advanced mathematics, physics etc.) and will determine my future and what college ill end up at and how my life will play in general. Because of this I cant do the things i like like hanging with friends, gaming or other hobbies. I literally stay locked in my room with no choice but to stay studying like have been doing the last 4 months. I've relapsed a few times this week and today i relapsed a lot. I am not going back to extreme categories and i can regulate it but it helps me cope in a way with my stress. After my exams I'll be able to do all the things I've wanted to do and I highly doubt Ill go back to porn because have partially rewired my brain in a way. But what do i do in the meantime? I still have the mentality of getting rid of porn from my life forever.
     
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  2. Porn has become a way to regulate your emotions and cope with stress. What you want to do is to replace watching porn with more healthy habits. What has helped me the most were meditation and exercise. Meditation is probably the best way to learn how to relate and deal with difficult emotions like anxiety and feeling overwhelmed and it's cheap and can be done everywhere. It can be a bit tricky at the beginning but apps like Headspace are an easy way to get started. And get out of your room and get some exercise regularly ideally in the sun and with fresh air whether it's just walking for 20 minutes, riding the biking or hitting the gym. It's a bulletproof way for the body to release stress and tension.
     
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