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i fucked up need moral support

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Z_the_B, Mar 11, 2015.

  1. Z_the_B

    Z_the_B Guest

    So I have a very important exam tmrw. I don't know why I am here. The time is 1:45 in the midnight.
    I went to bed at 11 30 but could fall asleep at all till 1 30.
    And then I did the most craziest thing. I went to the bathroom and masTurbated. I had decided to just orgasm as I thought it might make me fall asleep(what the Fuck was I thinking) and then when I started masturbating, i suddenly closed my eyes thought abt my fav porn and orgasmed quickly.
    And I still can't fall asleep. Such a fucking bad decision. My reboot was going so well.

    Now I have to stay up all night because if I ho to sleep I will never be able to wake up on time!! I don't know what ongoing to do.
     
  2. PornNevermore

    PornNevermore Fapstronaut

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    "Success is not built on success. It's built on failure. It's built on frustration. Sometimes its built on catastrophe."

    So I say to you, don't dwell on your mistakes. The most important thing is to just learn from what you did and keep going no matter what.

    The past in in the past- let it stay there.

    Good luck to you. Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.
     
  3. Z_the_B

    Z_the_B Guest

    Its the most important phase of my life these 3 months and I can't sitaroundl
     
  4. Z_the_B

    Z_the_B Guest

    Its the most important phase of my life these 3 months as they decide my career and I can't sitaround in the forums, facing all the withdrawal and stuff. How do I go by this! :(
     
  5. victoryisnear

    victoryisnear Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, masterbauting before a test, makes you feel complacent and you will lack confidence plus you will start to forget stuff as well... What done is done, don't dwell on it. Your panicking right now bcz you are dealing with the side effects of MO. It's all in your head, just try to relax
     
  6. Leone

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    Don't worry about it man! The important thing is that you are working on stopping this addiction. When you feel like this next time say to yourself that m doesn't help in any way and it's going to make me tired. It's like a drug in your mind, but it makes you feel weak if you do it too often. focus on positive things, focus on your family and friends instead of focusing too much on p and m! Keep up the good work and you will get out of this addiction in no time. Be serious about it and ask yourself - do you really want to stop this? If the answer is yes then take one day at a time. One day today and one day tomorrow that's two days, keep building up and by summer you will be at the end of three months. Work hard and built your character if you want to stop this and reach 160 days without a reset! Good luck man..
     
  7. 2BT2EMW

    2BT2EMW Fapstronaut

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    Something that someone once told me is that the only way to build endurance is to endure - failure will happen, but keep going, and you will get stronger. That has stuck with me. We all fail, and most likely will fail again. But that does not make us Failures. You are only a failure if you don't learn from it and pick yourself back up. So don't berate yourself on a failure. Recognize it and start over.

    As for the struggle, that one is hard, as we all have our own methods of coping. Do you have an accountability person outside of the forums that you can turn to? In those sleepless moments, is there something constructive or distracting that you can do instead, like watch a movie, work out, go for a walk, or anything simply to distract your mind and engage your body in something else?
     
  8. suyash_4376

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    I have been there bro. My a**hole roommate called his friends on the night before exam and I could not sleep because of them.Plus, I was nervous regarding the test and did not have the slightest sleep in my eyes. So, I masturbated, hoping I would be able to sleep. But, I felt really fucked up. Slept somehow. Screwed up the test and my 12 day streak.

    I think in these moments, the best way is to remind ourselves of our priorities. At that time, the priority shifted to sleeping peacefully which is why you(I) had to take that decision. We did not know it won't work.

    I know how frustating and emotionally draining are these months of carrer decision because I have crossed them exactly 1 year ago. Boards, competition exams, pressure from parents, desire to fare well, all sorts of things. But, in the light of the circumstances, I would say you took a GOOD decision in the moment.

    As coincidental as it is I too was struggling last night and longing for some support. My friends had forcefully shown me some scenes of American pie and Van wilder. When such movie nights happen I lose control. When I came to sleep alone, temptations loomed large. Couldn't think of anything. Was about to browse when I decided to watch the movie "Thanks For Sharing". The movie has a baseline of sex addiction. I watched it alone. And when I saw a naked [nfsw]boob[/nfsw] I became very sad. I was literally crying. I don't know why or how. I have never felt that way. I was in need of support then at 2am. I messaged you too. But, I had no idea you were struggling too.

    I just want to say that in these moments, social support becomes vital. That's what I learned from that movie. Feel free to call me, bro. I am there for you. Because I was trying to quit during IIT-JEE and board exams.

    You can't give up on studies and you don't want to give up on your reboot. In moments like these, perhaps even the strongest people will need help. Don't hesitate. There's no need. After all we two have same stories. You won't judge me. So, have faith that I won't either.
     
  9. Ics2000

    Ics2000 Fapstronaut

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    A stressful time and a difficult test for your recovery. Now you're even stronger and more determined. The support on here has been awesome - hope it's a comfort to you.
     
  10. Z_the_B

    Z_the_B Guest

    Oh my god thanks a lot guys ! Guess what guys. I fucking aced the exam. It went FANTASTIC. But I'm still sad that I lost reboot progress . anyway fuck the past. Thanks a lot for your support I'm taking all your suggestions and advices! Just soaking it all in.
    My last streak was 20 days and I had absolutely no problem in those 20 days. I was very resolute and I could actually feel P leaving my life. Glad I didn't watch P although I fantasized a lil. That can't be undone. Yet, a relapse doesn't mean a complete reset so I'm quite alright now
     
  11. suyash_4376

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    Good job man!! Nice work acing the exam. Best of luck for future ones.....
     

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