Is there any hope for me?

I'm 22 bad social anxiety, and the type depression that is lack of interest in everything. (I'll i dooo is sit and siiiiiigh oh lord) I'm really not having any fun all my emotions are numb I don't get disappointed I don't get angry I just care you could hit me with your car and I'd just get up and walk away like nothing happend. Maybe my depression plays a role in why I can't get off to normal things. It seems the more disturbing the porn is the more I get off, I don't think there is much worse porn then what I'm watching now. I just want to be able to get off to simple normal stuff so I can get on with life and start a relationship

 

Staying away from PMO isn't going to hurt you, isn't the chance of improving your life worth the 90 days?