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It's working! But I need a bit of support...

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Legit1, Apr 20, 2019.

  1. Legit1

    Legit1 Fapstronaut

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    So I'm currently at day 16, and the confidence and self esteem is increasing. I'm not used to this new version of me because I've lived with severe social anxiety a year ago in my 1st job and felt like pure crap for over 3 years due to fapping almost every day. This new version of me now has no pimples, few acne scars (most others faded), bloating appearance is fading, eyes look like they have a fire rising day by day, and hair isn't as dry as back then.

    I get it, these should all be benefits on why I shouldn't relapse, and they are. But a part of me is thinking "Just relapse once and keep your streak going again, it won't do much damage." I'm pretty sure this is a withdrawal symptom, right? Like, I've most likely become too accustomed to my old version and see that as my 'Right version'... I'm working out, taking cold showers, having a kidney detox this whole month, getting sunlight daily, and trying my best to keep on going. But I'm a bit scared to see how the future 'me' would look after 90 days. I won't fap once I reach 90 days as I just want to do nofap for life, but right now it seems like I'm thinking too much about myself....
     
  2. bigboibez

    bigboibez Fapstronaut

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    From experience i can tell u that relapsing isnt worth it. It is a hollow promise and leaves you full of disappointment and regret. Everyone has that voice telling them to relapse. It is what you get from stopping an addiction. But let me tell you from the bottom of my heart it is NEVER worth it. Whether you're on day 1, 15, 90 or 10,000 , it is always a hollow promise. You are giving up so much when you PMO. I understand that it does get overwhelming but the best advice i have is to do some intense exercise. Biking, lifting, running, hiking you name it. Keeping busy and doing exercise will tire you out and definitely help with the unrelenting urges. But just remember you started because you didnt enjoy porn. It is an illusion man. Accept the urge as just part of the addiction. It is healing everytime you do not act on an urge. Youre future self will thank you.
     
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  3. Bombadil

    Bombadil Fapstronaut

    The relapse lies. It's just full of emptiness. It'll leave you no happier than when you started, and you'll still have all that stuff to deal with, as well as feeling shitty because you failed.

    Don't fall for it man.
     
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