Empty

I have spent years reading up and watching self help videos on issues such as loneliness / social anxiety / depression. There's only so much you can take in, I suppose it's a case of actually doing and having consistent action.

I have done PMO for the last 15 years about 2 -3 times a week, wasted a lot of hours in the process because I don't know what I want to do with my life.

I have also had upto about 2 months at a time of trying to self improve in the form of diet and exercise and reducing PMO, only for the cycle to lapse and revert to watching porn and procrastinating.

Maybe I'm not doing it long enough to really notice a difference, but I still feel empty even shortly after doing something positive such as lifting weights or going for a run... is it because I'm not motivated by a specific goal or purpose? Am I trying to self improve without actually getting anywhere?

 

Probably surviving, I'm grateful for what I have but struggling to find a life purpose I guess, thanks for your thoughts.