Well.. watchaa thinkin?

Hey guys! I'm new here, just made the account. I have been living alone for the past year now! And it sucks as fuck!! I'm living on the 12th floor in this tall building, I'm currently in the living room sitting Netflix and weed! There is this annoying space between the curtains that beams a sunlight right at my left eye! I keep adjusting my sitting cause I'm too lazy to just close the curtains. I'm zak btw, 24 years old. Lost, like I don't know where the fuck am I lost! I'm not even the are we there yet lost! I'm literally!! The why is it dark lost! I'm addicted to porn, got crohn's disease, studying college here and high all the time! I'm just writing with a fast flow. So whatever I'm thinking about now is just coming out! How, high are you?? I mean !! Hi , how are you ?

*flipping scene*
Introduction....
I'm some guy whose literally across the world that you can't see cause he got his curtains closed. I do magic btw, people usually ask me, do you really believe in magic? I say faaaaaaaack that shit!!!.. I stay practicing all night long for me to make you believe that magic exist! I'm the tool that you see magic! But magic doesn't work for me

I don't know what even doing at this point,
Just reply, I need someone to talk to