88 days and counting but am I flatlining??

I used to watch porn (My username would suggest so and masturbate 2-4 times every fucking day since I turned 15, I am 37 now. On Jan-01 this year I decided to give up this habit

It’s been 88 days now and I haven’t watched porn, no fapping and in fact no sexual activity at all.

First couple of weeks were hell and my mind played so many tricks but I refrained (I had overcome my alcohol addiction last year so that training helped)

Had a fall after 36 days or so. But since the last 50+ days i have totally stopped feeling sexual. No erections (except for the morning ones) and I lose the erections quickly. Insomnia loss of apetite pimples and mouth ulcers are troubling me. I feel indifferent to everything but very proud of my self control.

I am planning to date someone soon but am afraid whether I ll get my erections back.

Is this normal or I am flatlining?? How long will this mode last?? Help would be appreciated

 

Thanks guys!! All very helpful. Few points:

1.There has been 0 motivation to relapse. I don’t want to watch porn or masturbate now. Somehow I have extremely strong willpower from an early age and that helped here. At times I love to torture myself by denying or delaying my desires so this trait helped me

2. I haven’t even had sex for last 1 year so that worries me because sex is natural. To be honest I didn’t even actively engage with girls. So there is no way of knowing how I ll perform in the bed now. Earlier I used to take really long time to ejaculate - I believe the result of pmo. There was no sensation and no fun just the fake pride of delayed ejaculation

So I was checking with you guys is it normal to loose desire and erection around 90 days? And is it ok if I have sex? Does that lead to relapse or shall I continue with the hardmode. I can continue for a long time

Someone asked me about pros, I have only perceived one ,

1. Tremendous boost to will power

 

My question is more about sex than fapping. I don’t have any urge to fap again but can one have sex durin nofap challenge??

 

this sounds great!! how do i enroll in this competition?? simply challenge someone or the mod pits me against someone??

 

100+ days now on hardmode — and i think i have been rebooted. can go on like this for rest of my life..am not scared of flatlining anymore. dont objectify women anymore..

do i feel the temptation to watch porn and fap?? - rarely. first two weeks were toughest but now i dont feel the urge 99.9% of the time. its a rare moment when my mind tried to play the trick but now it knows it cant trick me anymore. how did i achieve this??

1. i was always seeking a chance to be alone. and being alone fired up chemicals that led to pmo.. it wasnt sexual just a very screwed up wiring system in my mind because of years of pmo. how did i overcome it — sheer willpower. i decided that i have the power to overcome my stupid and unnatural desire

a lot of people would say that avoid being alone but i disagree. face your biggest fears and challenges head-on. pat yourself on the back everytime you overcome the urge for pmo..

2. delete the porn?? dont stream it?? — again there is so much porn out there that you possibly cant get rid of it but once you disassociate the sexual feelings associated with porn - you wont need it

3. read good literature

4. exercise - i jog for 45 mins everyday., nothing hardcore

5. eat well.. i have been off alchol for almost a year now and off meat for 1.5 years now..getting drunk makes you lose that sensibility and self control

my ambition to grow personally and professionally has gone up - maybe subconsciously i am channeling all the energy spent on pmo towards self improvement

nofap challenge is for real and makes a massive difference to the quality of life you lead. all the best to my fellow warriors.. ll keep sharing my story - my challenges and my victoried

 

well after controlling myself for good 6 months, i relapsed couple of months ago. again i am back to porn and fapping. Also started dating a girl and she is pretty attractive. had good sex as well but last week i didnt get an erection.. that was embarassing and now its almost a week and i hvent got an erection.

anyone has any clue wat happened here?? do i need to reboot again?? also what about having sex with my girl during the nofap/reboot time? because if i dont do anything for months then i dont think my relation ll survive