Porn doesn't seem to be effecting me as negatively as it used to?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by skaterdrew, Mar 28, 2019.

  1. skaterdrew

    skaterdrew Fapstronaut

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    So I was addicted to PMO for nearly a decade and have also suffered with PIED for a long time.

    Over the last while I have so many blockers that are difficult to bypass on my computer, and I don't have a smart phone. I keep getting streaks of no porn or artificial sexual stimulation of up to 30 days. But what usually always happens is I end up getting drunk with friends and then the following day when I am hungover I relapse. I have the password for all my blockers and my administrators account stored on a file on my parents computer who stay about a mile away from me. But when I have been hungover I have actually been so horny I have walked round to get this password. The password is a long code password that you would have a very difficult time remembering off by heart.

    But when I relapse when I am hungover I binge, literally PMOing for an entire day. But then the following day I block everything again. This has been what has been happening recently, streaks of no porn or artificial sexual stimulation for nearly 30 days, get drunk, wake up hungover, PMO binge for a day. I have had a lot of streaks away from porn and artificial sexual stimulation.

    The strange thing is my PIED doesn't seem to be returning, even after these PMO binges. I don't know if it has anything to do with all the streaks that I have had away from porn? I mean when I realistically think about it I am probably only looking at porn once a month, and that has been the case for around 4 months. But when I relapse I usually PMO binge for one day. But like I said the strange thing is my erections are still improving. I seem to be able to get a good solid erection without porn or artificial sexual stimulation.

    The worry with this though is I don't want to trick my self in to think porns not that bad. The other day I was think I PMOed all those times the other day and I still don't have ed from it.

    I would really like some help and advice on this please?
     
  2. Ridley

    Ridley Fapstronaut

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    Take note of that. You noticed a pattern. Noticing patterns is one of your most powerful weapons in your fight against your addiction. You know that drinking with your friends often leads to relapse, so the next time you drink with your friends, brace yourself. If you anticipate the urges to go back to porn coming on, you'll basically be one step ahead of your addiction. It's a simple concept, but it gives you a lot of power.

    I guess I'll pose my advice as a question: why risk it? You already know that PMO has been a problem for you in the past (you mentioned it caused you ED). Even if it's not causing that problem for you in the present moment, you know it still has the potential to.

    If you want my honest opinion, it sounds like you're trying to make excuses for your addiction. It sounds like you're trying to say "it's not as bad as it was before", and when you're asking for advice, I think what you're really asking is: "is it okay for me to just continue going on as I am, since it's not as bad as it was before?" I think that's a question you have to answer. You could probably continue going on as you are now, but do you really want to? It sounds like you binge on porn for an entire day every time you get hungover. Is that who you want to be? If you're alright with that, then I guess keep doing what you're doing. However, if that's not who you really are, then try to find another plan.
     

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