Venous leak or hard flaccid?

Hello guys, I did a bad mistake two and a half years ago. I bent my penis about 6 times and after that it was completely different then before. I dont know whats the diagnosis, I visited many urologists, many said that it is psychological and then I had a dobbler with injection, I only got a small spongy erection with this and the urologist diagnosed that the bloodflow in is very good but it comes out very fast. He said we are in the area of an implant. But I dont want to accept this, so I looked very carefully and I wonder why my penis shrinks, why I cant feel so much, it s like connection between penis and brain doesnt work and why I often have a hard flaccid cold penis. Many other docs also said that it could be normal that you dont get a hard one after injection cause its a small dosis. I dont know what this condition is until yet. I dont know what to do and if its hard flaccid, venours leak , Peyronies desease (which also was diagnosed) or nerve damage or everything together. It would be very nice of you guys if you can give me some information, how a venous leak feels like. Docs who diagnosed bloodoutflow said I have to masturbate very often (use it or loose it) but if its nerve damage or hard flaccid it could probably be better to stop this and make a reboot. I dont know what to do now.
Best regards

 

Every day 1-5 times since 2009. But now I think I have to do it because when I dont, I feel nothing like I have no penis. I stopped it for two days but I felt very depressed and felt like I have no penis like I said. But its clear that It comes from the accident cause I bent it very rough....

 

It shrinks and goes to hard flaccid condition, in this condition its very exhausting to get an erection. When he is soft its also difficulter than before but a lot better