Over 120 days of NoFap was the easiest thing ever! Then this happened...

When I started NoFap mid last year I thought it would be difficult, but it was the easiest thing ever. I had no urges. I had no relation to people on here struggling. I stopped counting the days after a few weeks. It was easy!

The objective of this thread is to highlight an interesting experience with NoFap, mainly around your environmental triggers.

So, there I am, doing NoFap and it was a breeze. Zero urges, no temptation, no thoughts. Living in a crowded space, it was an easy thing to do. Apart from a period a few days where I felt great, I experienced zero benefits. Finding it completely easy and gaining no benefits for over four months I MO'd, and you know what I felt... nothing. I did not feel any different. Apart from a brief moment of silence, there was no guilt, no shame, no feeling of 'what have I done?!' So I went back to PMO occasionally. I didn't doubt or question logic of nofap, YBOP and PIED, I just forgot about it and got on with my life. Maybe it just wasn't an issue for me.

You may wonder why I am here almost bragging. Well, I'm not here to brag, because this is where it gets interesting...

I moved house recently. Previously living with too many people for a year, I now have peace, quiet, and alone time. I also now have time to go on my laptop, whereas before I used it sparingly, only when necessary.

Within one day of this move I PMO'd. I then almost instantly found myself seeking out P. It was like someone flicked a switch inside of me. Something had taken over me. I did this almost every day. I wasn't even turned on my the P videos, felt like I was watching them for the sake of it, so, thinking of NoFap and addiction, I decided to stop doing it... then it happened.

I suddenly felt these urges. Urges to look at P, to M, and to O. I couldn't believe it. I found myself with all these temptations. All the apparent struggles which eluded me when I first did NoFap are here! YBOP is 100% real and PMO is an issue.

It made me think about environmental triggers to PMO. No urges or cravings before, now suddenly there are.

Looking back on why I found NoFap so easy before was because where I lived in a crowded space for the year I wasn't in my typical PMO environment. I was also depressed (which I didn't even realise it / want to admit it to myself), which can help explain why I didn't experience any benefits, and why I didn't have any real urges to PMO in the first place.

Now I have moved, my depression cleared almost straight away, and I found myself in similar situations which would trigger my PMO before. I'm at my place and I'm alone, it's like I didn't even decide to PMO, it just returned and took over like before I lived in the crowded house. Almost like going on a bicycle after so long, you never forget. It's crazy!

On a positive note, I am on day nine of my reboot, and my girlfriend has never looked more beautiful, I feel like I am falling in love with her all over again.

Sorry for the long post, and sorry if this isn't on topic to this section of the forum, but it felt like such a mind meddling experience that I had to share it. I am not sure what takeaways there are from this thread, apart from your environment plays a massive impact on your PMO triggers. Be aware of the triggers and you can fight it.

 

It's weird isn't it. You're right about saying seclusion triggers it. It's almost like your body just goes into muscle memory mode and you do it without thinking.

Sorry to hear about your relapse, brother. That is a good way to look at it, just viewing it as your lifestyle rather than a specific number of days to get to. Good luck!

 

She is great. I've felt more connected to her in these 9 days than in the streak where I was 120 days clean where I felt no benefits because I was in a bad environment. Although this is only my second attempt at nofap, she's the reason I'm doing it.

 

I must have missed the sarcasm.

Agreed. That's how I'm approaching it. It's a lifestyle. No different than someone going on a diet to lose weight, you shouldn't focus on it being a temporary thing you do for a certain amount of time but just a way you live your life.