I'm trying the 90 days challenge! (60 day reached!!!!)

Hi friends, Today is my 22 day. I want to get the 90-day challenge.

Some days i practice meditation for 20 minutes for re-center my mind.

These days I have felt these changes:

- Every day i wake up happy, with more energy.

- I'm professional poker player and during these days I felt that I am much less angry when i lose a big pot. When i was in a PMO circle, often I was angry. Now I have more selfcontrol and this means win more money.

- It is also curious, but now I feel more the flavours of the food.

- More encouraged and without fear when I talk to the girls, even if they are very pretty.

- My relation with my mother is improving, but I dont know if it's only for it.

I'm very happy with all this, I want to get it!

 

I believe I am finding my interior peace. I m feeling strange haha. I dont recognize myself.

Today, I gone to the beach for take a bath of 30 seconds the temperature outside the water was 6C degrees haha (in spain is full winter). It recharges your energy to maximum!

And I've gone to play, and i lost 400euro is my 3rd day in a row losing, I am in a little downswing, but I'm not angry!! (Poker is hard for live, It's easier have other normal work I assure you all)

Days before Nofap, when I was in this same situation I'm absolutely sure would be angry and stressed. But I am strangely happy and unaffected

 

Hi friends!

Today is my 30 day of abstinence! i am very proud of myself!

The first days are the hardest. But now is less. Maybe before this challenge I was very negative and now I look much more positive. Many days I even had suicidal thoughts and that this life is crap, etc ...

I notice a lot more confidence in myself. I have not been with any girl this month yet, but I feel that now I can link to whoever I want and my self-esteem has gone up. 30 days of abstinence is a challenge that not all men can overcome, and this makes me believe much more in myself and feel very motivated. Nobody can stops me now!

Today I am very very happy

 

Today I had a very stressful moment. I discussed strongly with two persons and I almost hit with one. The curious thing is that before that, in the afternoon I was doing 30 minutes of meditation.

When I got home I felt that the desire to fap in my brain was activated by the addiction that implies. I had autocontrol and I dont done it, but it is the closest day that I felt for relapse in the last 2 weeks.

I need to deactivate totally the reward circuit in my brain for live in peace

 

Hello! In fact, my game has improved this month so much, now I can think better, with absolutely clarity than before nofap .The problem with these two guys was for another thing.

I have resisted, I m very proud of it. In all the day i didnt done nothing for activate the dopamine in my brain.

Thank for all guys! I love this web

 

Hello! I'm in the middle of the challenge! very happy for this decision!

Maybe testosterone and dopamina feel balanced. But I am better, happier. There is no hate against myself as before.

My sex life has improved, at this moment I got a semi-girlfriend with whom we have kissed and touched, not yet fucked. And I feel in this moment have more options with other girls. I look them more in the eyes without fear and I notice that they like it. I m feeling securer in myself as never

In this moment I feel so good that I do not want to ever do more pmo. It will be hard, but I hope it is capable

 

Hi friends!! Today is my 60 day without PMO! I almost cannot believe it

My experience during 30-60 days. It has been that maybe testosterone feels more balanced and the energy has also normalized. In some moments I felt a bit of sadness, maybe the flatline. Now, I didnt feel the temptation for see pmo as the first month. With the girls it feels easier to talk to them.

With my hot girl we have fucked twice. In the first I had problems at the beginning with the erection but then 50% lasts. The second occasion the erection was 100% good. Although on neither of the two occasions I have not been able to ejaculate. This situation is perfect for her... but not for me. I believe my dick feels a few insensitive when fuck due a lot of years pmoing.

Although I'm with her I also try to flirt with others. I am not fall in love, is just casual sex for me. She feels a lot of attraction, maybe too much (never in my life had any girl been so hot with me).

 

ok, i finished. In this moment I relapsed, I felt a lot of nostalgy of porn. It doesnt safisfy me, but the life feels dark without porn.

 

arghhh, how is possible? how have I wrotten this shit?

Ok, I restart the challenge! Tomorrow, new goals! meditation and cold shower every day!