PMO since I was 12 (now 26) - considering rebooting

I'm a n00b to these forums and am a 26 year old very frustrated dude with an engineering degree, no debt, a very successful career (so far), and am in good physical shape. I discovered PMO back when I was ~12 and PMO'ed about 1-3 times a day since then. That generally seems to be about when most of these symptoms started, but I can't remember for sure. My biggest complaint thus far is that I've always had some sort of "mental problem" going on weather that be depression, ADD/ADHD, anxiety, brain fog, mood swings, you name it. I've been actively trying to chase the brain fog specifically for the last ~7 years with some ADHD stimulants, anti-depressants, pretty much every natural supplement designed for serotonin/dopamine support, etc and, while some things help for a couple days, absolutely nothing sticks.

I've compiled a more complete list of symptoms for another forum that may be relevant here as well. Many of them seem possibly caused by PMOing from the reports I've heard:
- Brain fog (and accompanying motivation and attention issues)
- mood swings
- head tension (feel like a rubber band is stretched around my brain)
- depression / anxiety
- chronic small headache nowhere in particular - just everywhere, but with an occasional sharp pain that lasts for a couple seconds, then disappears
- sometimes almost feels like my brain just stops working and I suddenly lose 30 iq points and ~25% of my cognitive function (but never full-on seizures)
- lower back/vertebra, right sacroiliac joint, and right hip pain that can be excruciating and comes and goes with no real patter, but often lasts several days or weeks
- acid reflux that comes and goes
- get plenty of sleep (~9 hours), but never really feel fresh and rested
- within the last year or so, I discovered that I had become lactose intolerant to "large doses" of dairy (such as drinking a glass of milk), but smaller doses (like eating pizza) didn't trigger it.
- I traveled out of the country and didn't take my daily multi vitamins and the mental fog got substantially worse, then lightened up once I returned and started taking them again
- I often feel better after taking a 3rd vitamin, but I don't see that as a long-term solution as 'overdosing' on some vitamins for a long time can be problematic
- occasional intestine pains, but often short lived. I mostly brush them off as normal, but it might be worth mentioning
- still have some acne and freckles on my shoulders, back, and chest
- energy comes and goes sporadically. Sometimes caffeine helps perk me up - sometimes, it makes me sleepy.
- Not socially 'sharp' and I can't just "shoot the breeze" like most folks
- difficulty recalling things I know that I know
- high blood pressure diagnosed in college (~22 years old) at ~ 145/95 when I was (and still am) a very physically active a fit person
- heart palpitations also beginning in college

I figure I really ought to kick PMOing anyways after being on it for ~15 years. I know everyone works differently, but I'd like to get a general idea what to expect if I can, so I have a couple questions. Firstly, when might I start to see what types of results? Specifically, brain fog and social anxiety stuff are my 'worst offenders'. Is MO off limits too, or is that the effectively the same as PMOing? What about MO from a girl? I might add a few more on here as I think of them, but that's all I've got at the moment. Thanks for sticking through the whole novel and thoughts, comments, advice, experience, etc are all appreciated!

 

Heck, this is an old thread. Shows how much I suck, I guess because I'm just on day 4 of a new hardmode challenge. I'm still on blood pressure meds, but last I checked, my blood sugars were just fine.

 

I'm doing fairly good this round so far. As I'm writing this, I'm on day 10 and I've started to see some glimpses of mental clarity, sharpness, girls noticing me, etc... Obviously, this is just the beginning and there's a long way to go, but little glimpses like that give me hope and determination.

 

Ugh.... Well, I was on day 18. I had a Chrome incognito mode going on because I was researching some potentially sensitive stuff (nothing related to PMO). After I researched it, I was just like "well, since I've got it open anyways...". I was over halfway to day 30 too! Well, back to day 0, I guess...

 

Good thing I don't care about your incorrect assumptions. I'm not going to bother justifying my non-pmo browsing/research material to anyone here. It's just the fact of the matter.

I know withdrawal symptoms can be a b**ch, but they seem fairly short-lived in all of the testimonies I've read that are similar to my situation (at least the super-nasty portion anyways). I have relapsed twice this year so far, so, while it's not a perfect streak, I can tell I'm totally making progress in that direction as long as I don't let myself get sucked in as bad as I was. Perhaps easing off of it will help withdrawal symptoms? I'm not really sure, but at least progress is being made.