Desperate need to fix myself

Hi all I am a 30 yr old virgin male who is now a few days into the attempt to fix myself. I don't know if it will work or not but I have to try.

My struggle is not necessarily that I'm addicted to porn it's more so what gets me aroused now compared to what it was before and how that has affected me when I think of sex etc. I get aroused instantly by things suck as cuckolding, the idea of giving men oral but I consider myself straight since I know I want to be with women but I don't get aroused easily by those thoughts if at all sometimes. My only hope is noFap and even then I'm scared bc if that doesn't work then I don't know what to do. I have nothing against bi or gay I just myself growing up never considered myself either of those. It's just through cuckolding etc that the idea of oral sex to go a guy started seeming arousing etc and then it grew from there.

Deep down I wanna be with women and as aroused if not more aroused than I am when thinking of cuckolding etc.

It's been a few days since I started despite what my tag says below and I had my first sex dream maybe but it involved no women which scared me and made me feel uneasy. It did involve the idea of guys telling me to give them oral sex etc and I was hard when i woke up. There used to be a time when I would have dreams like that of women but nothing lately.

Any guidance or help would be appreciated.

 

Thanks Josh hope I haven't messed myself up

 

Thanks guys I already had a relapse by thinking of oral sex situations with the same gender and feel guilty. I know I have to restart but I hope I can get over this I do get Intensley aroused by those thoughts but I also know that ideally what I want for my sex life is to be with women but my body or penis isn’t responding as strongly to that right now so I hope I can fix things