Strongly thinking of going back to PMO

Hey bro! It is true that once you stop you will become more aware of the emotions and it may seem like you are going through more suffering, but actauly you are coming to life!

When energy is too low, one falls in depression and mental dullness, but once you start to develop your energy you become more alive and you start to feel again.

Your emotions are a scale like colors, You will go through a range of them.

We all do - through self-awareness and a higher degree of presence you will be able to dis-identify from your emotions and find a sense of calmness and joy in the middle of all of them.

So I suggest reading some of the positive reviews of others, get reconnected to your reason why you chose this path.

Also remember you can ALWAYS go back later, but you have not been truly free yet, don't just tipy toe your feet - dive right into to freedom. Be free for a year or two or three, and then see if the life you have is the one you like better or worst.

The caterpillar has to go through a semi-nightmare of having to break out of a messy nasty cacoon and discover it can fly as a butterfly!

Everything takes time. There is a season for everything. Be patience and choose self-control and living with dignity as your highest goal.

 

I fought with similar urges and feelings earlier this summer. Eventually I crumbled after 79 days...
Trust me IT WASN'T WORTH IT.
A small amount of pleasure for penis and brain was vastly outweighed by the negativity and depression that followed.
I repeat IT ISN'T WORTH IT...
It has taken me over 2 months to get my current run going...
Hang in there

 

According to your profile, you're 16. Maybe you feel you're care-free now, no worries, etc, but go over to the 20+, 30+, etc sections, see older people that a long addiction has completely ruined their lives in practically every important aspect. Hang in there, because these are the years when you choose how to shape your life, and PMO won't get you anywhere, far from it.

 

Such beautiful words....

 

I have felt this exact way, and have been thinking it on and off he last few weeks. I think it’s my brain trying one last time before the greatness that is sure to come, sets in. I’m hoping at least, that’s what I’m telling myself. This addiction is slowly dying and it’s trying it’s best to get me to cave. We have to keep going man. Do not get off unless it’s from a woman’s touch, and don’t cave in and look at P!

 

Hang in there please. Dont wind up like this 43 yrs old guy(me) who has wasted over 27yrs of his life with this poison. Hang in there, it will be worth the initial hell. Sincerely, Colin.

 

Same here...I have my ups and downs. On day 78 right now...But it's totally worth to go for it! Keep it going!

 

IF only i were your age again......... I wish you every success in this, and your life. Colin.

 

You too brother. Thanks for sharing, and hang in there yourself. I had a similar experience with my gf recently. I was 58 days of no PMO and she was rubbing me even though I had all my clothes on. I ejaculated in my pants and felt horribly depressed for the next few hours. I told her what happened later, but I didn't stop her in the moment. I was so scared that this would lead me back to PMO in the coming days, but I have been able to get right back up and string another 11 days together. I'm so thankful for that right now, and I am committed to completing hard-mode of 90 days. My gf and I are dating in purity anyways so we must exercise self-control in this area before marriage. It's very difficult, but I know that these times of self-control will help us to have a healthy marriage in the future.

 

Sitting on a train heading towards an abyss hurts less than trying to at least stop it.

 

Dude, whatever you're feeling now, PMO will make it worse! most of us thought that PMO will make us feel better and get rid of withdrawal symptoms but the opposite turned out.

Don't think PMO will solve your problem, your current feelings are because of recovery and it will fade away though time

Just Keep living your life and don't bother with every single detail, life without PMO is true and not fake as it was before

I wish you a very successful and easy recovery.

 

I relapsed on Monday and am kicking myself in the shins for it...only thing left for me to do is dust myself off and get back into the grind of things