My views on NOFAP

Hi, I discovered NOFAP in January this year when I wanted to reduce my fapping and porn watching habit and found myself wathing BDSM porn on Christmas and I don't even like it.
The first few months were an emotional disaster, I cried all the time and tried to cope with med school, with my empty life and everything that bothered me. I started orgasming with fapping around once a week or so after august I think, but I want to make 90 days again, and this time I think it's gonna be even better since I know my shit now and am a lot more stable than before.
As for the results, I must say it isn't quite as people explain it, but I still got some. I am a lot less shy than I used to be. I lost weight and gained some muscles, became winder in shoulders and back, and I also grew some beard and buzz cutted my hair so I have a new recognisable style now. I passed all my exams despite the fact I wanted to quit my third year of med school, and kept a grade score of 9,65/10. I went to my first travel abroad alone and met new people there, and started going to gym which was a living hell for me. I started valuing myself more and giving shit about others less, and in general became much more resistant to loneliness and independent.
I must say that no one supported me except my closest friends, mature 30+ women and family. Everyone else thought I was weird and I should just fap and watch porn every day and have sex with prostitutes and stuff. I was rejected by literally every girl I liked, and as much people saw my changes, no one wanted to acknowledge my hard work and effort or to think I am a mature and respectable person, but I just kept on being alone and working even harder. I did things I thought I could never pull of, and I must say, after getting hurt and rejected so much, thinking I wasnt good enough, thinking I am not handsome enough I can finally say I at least did my part and am proud of myself. So don't ever expect anything on anyone. This is your journey of self recovery, of self improvement and of self acknowledging. Usually I don't like typing because I feel bored by it, but I really want to tell everyone that even when it seems it doesn't work, it can still be a lot worse, and you are doing your best. And if anything goes wrong, it's just a way of your life saying to you there is a different path with something better going on for you. I know it sounds cheesy but I am really grateful that I found this network and I wish all luck and happiness to all people out there.
If anyone wants something from scinetific medical field explained, or if anyone wants a study buddy online you can always call me.
Best wishes!

 

I had similar problem with waking up early, but I connected it with clinical depression, I didn't know wether it was my body telling me to get up and do stuff at that time because I had appetite problems, and mood swings and I could not find a thing in my life that makes me happy. After a few weeks I still had emptiness inside me and didn't know what I want where to go and stuff like that, but my appetite never left me and my sleep was always good. My parent's never allowed me ot take antidepressants if it didn't keep me from functioning so I will never know.

 

Everything in life is a long journey. Everything people say that they experienced as good for a short period of time on nofap is either a placebo or just a physical effect. For mental stuff it takes time and time, failing and succeeding. It indeed is a long journey. If you did something for like 8 years, how do you expect it to end for 8 days? Sometimes I don't get people who think it will give them X ray vision or something ahahah. It's just a shifting of energy to do something else more profound, long lasting and better. To get your dopamine levels high from some other stuff than sexual or purely addictive and toxic sorts of things like drugs, food, watching series whole day etc. , you won't discover America with not masturbating.

 

Wow, thanks, I am really glad someone understands me. I am still in med school though since it lasts 6 years where I live. But when I went couple of times to therapist since I wanted to try it over summer, he asked me something and I said "well because of college, I had to study", and he told me "Aren't you maybe hiding from problems with your family behind college?" and I didn't really want to potentiate the med student thing after that with people. I don't want to be that kind of person, yeah it's a big part of my life and it can be hard and asks for hell of a perservance, but it isn't the only thing defining me. I try to look at my school and my future work more as hobby than a whole life, even if it sounds hard in practice sometimes lol. Thank you very much again.