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Almost relapse

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Matthew386, Dec 9, 2018.

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  1. Matthew386

    Matthew386 Fapstronaut

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    Ok guys I don't know if this thread is in the right forum, if it's not please let me know and link the right forum so I will move it.
    I have almost relapse today, I'm not sure if I have to consider it a relapse or not, by the way I'm almost not sure if I'm addicted to porn and masturbation (and sex/porn chat) or no. By the way the fact is that I have log in a porn chat just an hour ago, I was feeling horny and I had think of find a girl I had chatted with some times ago. I had not found her but I had start a couple of conversation, look at a couple of pics then I think of what I was doing and simply stop and closed the chat. All of this without touching or jerking. So guys what do you think I have to consider this a relapse or not?
    Also because I now feel not really ashamed neither so bad, just a little worried but nothing really "exceptional".
    I don't know if take this as a victory or a near misses. Thanks to all for reading :)
     
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  2. Matthew386

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    Ty for answering this has made me feeling good :)
     
  3. MasterRoshi

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    Porn addiction in my experience works in a few ways (for me).

    First, it’s an escape from all the pain in my real life. So I can tap out of real life and become immersed in a fake fantasy world of PMO.

    Second, it is the negative effects of PMO. This seems to vary from person to person, but an overwhelming number of people are like me. We get social anxiety, go into isolation, lose the ability tosuvrssfully socialize, are stuck in a virtual world, and other similar emotional side effects. Not to mention the pied and other physical effects, like lethargic, spaciness, feeling like you’re underwater, removed from the world.

    Third, it’s the desensitization and over sexualization of people in my real life. Too much porn and increasingly extreme types causes me to treat others differently and see them in a sexual way.

    So if you aren’t doing any of this stuff then I would say your doing ok.

    But be careful. As PMO addicts if we haven’t dealt with the problems that cause us to want to escape by using porn, then little slips could quickly turn into a heavy relapse.

    Hope this helps!
     
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    It’s a victory, but what direction is it taking you? Eventually you’ll get too close to the fire and fall in. Yesterday I had an urge to look up Porn on my phone, but instead I threw my phone on the couch and went for a walk. When I returned I called my accountability partner and asked what I should do. It snapped me out of it. Do whatever it takes to succeed on Nofap, or life will be filled only with regret. Stay strong.
     
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    Ok, first of all really thanks for answering me :). To be honest I have kind of experimented the first "way" you have wrote, so my PMO derives from some sort of problem, not always by the way.
    The second thing you said I don't think I have never really fully do it, the only thing is that I have skip some chores or being up till late. I have never really isolated myself, no social anxiety, no problems in socializing, maybe there was an episode of something like that that happened one day, but it was only a one time thing.
    For the physical aspects, not really any physical problem, except maybe that I had a little less energy. And in the end no over specialization of people in my life, desensitisation maybe, or maybe it was only the shame that I was feeling for myself to make me feel that way, by the way I had always overcome that only by passing time with the people and not isolating. By the way I had other symptoms like being "unable" to stop or at least not having full control and watching more. I had also always stop when I was feeling that is too much but then I had restart again. Feeling down and ashamed for spending that time on it. All of this is a recent thing, this increase in porn/chat usage for me started just some months ago, before I have done it in a normal way (the chat is also a new thing, I started chatting a year ago).
    Again thank you for answering me, I hope I will understand if it is addiction or not, in the meantime I will continue with the program.
    Alexanderhatespmo really thanks to you to have shared your experience :)
     
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    Oh and in regards to being in a virtual world, yes I have experienced it being like detached from the reality, but there was only until I didn't get in touch with people, and tbh I have experienced it even before in my life, when I had no problems with porn or so.
     
  7. BigOne79

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    Stay strong bro! Looking for pictures online and fantasizing is probably worse and would lead to a relapse. Starting conversation is no big deal. Just avoid staying on the computer phone which will lead to looking for other stuff and then lapse..
     
  8. Matthew386

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    Ty to all guys for the support, but in the end I do have relapsed, just tonight. By the way I don't feel so much angry with me, at least not if now I will restart NoFap again. To be honest part of my relapse it was a test to understand if I'm addicted or not to porn (my fault so) but the second time was only lust so. I don't think I'm totally addicted (more like, I was becoming addicted and I recognized it), but surely it's a bad habit that will lead me to real addiction if I don't treat it right now.
    So again Ty all, it was 16 days NoFap, now I have to just restart. Ty all for support again.
     

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