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Day 19- Had an easy time yesterday. I attended a get together in the afternoon, had fun interacting with friends, eating some really good food and getting involved in other group activities.

I have found that words and thoughts have some sort of power over me. When I told myself NoFap is hard and that it is going to be bruising battle with urges that is how it turned out to be and I ended up getting tired of the battle. Now I have been telling my self that NoFap is enjoyable, the urges are a normal occurrence of my body and that this is essentially not a battle to the death but a lifestyle, all of a sudden things have become way easier. Of course, I still maintain vigilance because I know the 'porn brain' i.e. old neural pathways for porn still exist in my brain. However, there is no reason for me to make this harder than it already is by having a mindset that NoFap is so hard. Why not enjoy it?

This will be the first December in 20 years where I will be free of porn and masturbation. Fap Free December!

 

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Okay maybe this is truly an addiction... I watched porn but I have stopped myself before actually orgasming and now Im just going to take the blue balls.

 

I can still conquer this.... Just a part of the process.

 

congrats man, keep it going!

 

I couldn't conquer :/

 

sadly it’s like I see people who get stronger and stronger when they relapse because they have experience or whatever but with me I just feel smaller and smaller every time... I’ve already been doing this for AT LEAST a year and can’t get 30,60,90 days to save my fucking life. I’m assuming my motives aren’t correct. I know that the most successful people are about lifestyle changes. I just don’t want to be fucking depressed anymore. I can’t win fucking shit, I seem to literally fail everything I set out to do. Especially with women. Literally in my mind I’m waiting for all of my friends to leave me forever and for my job to fire me and then next for my family to turn their backs too... but when you see me you see a normal happy person. Internally that is not the case at all, though. I pretty much wish my life could just be over because I’m tired of having to pick my self up every morning just to not even succeed at what I picked myself up out of bed to fucking do. Why can’t I just be a normal person

 

Day 3 checkin , @Cmv120 it's ok keep trying .

 

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So obviously this porn addiction is just a symptom of an underlying emotional problem for many of us including myself. I think that progress is not linear. I also think the most important barometer of recovery is our emotional stability rather than the number of abstinent days. Isn't it incredible that one can go for 90 days pmo free and still not heal emotionally?
I also think you need to keep reading and researching. You can't keep doing the same thing over and over again and expect a different result. I think you need to intricately understand how porn physically changes the brain. You need to understand what neurotransmitters are involved. You need to understand what parts of the brain are changed. You need to understand hypofrontality in details. Once you get a firm grasp of how porn changes your brain and understand neuroplasticity then you can become hopeful that this is not a hopeless situation. Have you read the book Rewire Your Brain?

Commit to a program such as recoverynation.com and learn new strategies of how to deal with this and do the exercises there in. One of the things I learned from this program was that PMO addiction is not a single event. It is a chain reaction of events some of which are unconscious to us. If we can map out our chain reaction of events then we can break a part of the chain and stop ourselves from acting out. The book Treating Pornography Addiction by Dr Kevin B. Skinner calls it the activation sequence.

Read psychology books such as Feeling Good based on cognitive behavioral therapy or Happiness Trap based on acceptance and commitment therapy. These therapies can be used to treat anxiety and depression depending on the severity.

Keep reading and researching and you will find a solution. Knowledge is what has kept me going otherwise personally I think I would already be dead literally.

 

day 2 hope all are doing good

 

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