Day 104 hardmode went through reboot on my own

Hi I'm 23 years old and have been masterbating chronically since the age of 10 I started using porn since the age of 13 you can say I was hypersexual I've never completed anything in my life all I've failed at everything and despite the fact Im quite handsome I've never had a girlfriend so here I was 23 years old hair falling out weak no confidence looking older than my age a drug addict I lost my job 4 months ago and had some trouble with the cops anyhow I decided on that day to quit evreything so I bought lots of weed had sex with an escort and started .my NoFap challenge Im currently on day 104 without fap. Porn sex and drugs I went through many bad days of headache back pains fever constipation leaky penis and flat lines I'm in my third flat line right now and have come to enjoy it because its easier not being horny at all the second thing that helped me was not checking girls out for there assets and keeping my mind clean avoid any sexual images is music videos etc I can feel my self slowly recovering but a longer period of abstinence may be required I still get urges here and there but the time and effort I hve put into this always puts me off relapse I can't wait to recover so i can maybe find a partner

 

Thank you

 

Stay focused strong and motivated

 

I even thought that maybe I was bipolar this nofa0.commitment proved me wrong in my third flat line I havnt got a erection but I'm getting urges to watch porn but I'm not.gonna to much to.lose by wanking off I'm gonna wait till I'm fully recovered and find a partner.Patience is beautiful

 

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