Please Help Nasty dreams

First off, don't put a bullet in your head.
Secondly, I'm not a person qualified to psychoanalyse dreams, but I pretty confidently believe that your childhood sexual abuse has transformed into a repressed sexual fantasy in your dreams. You're fortunate enough to only have these kinds of thoughts in your dreams, and please be happy about that. Things get much worse when they fall into your actual consciousness. To stop these dreams, I'd say get professional help. Get help as soon as you can so these thoughts don't develop any further. Cut the plant by its roots. I'd also suggest trying to learn how to control your dream/become lucid. I wouldn't be the best person for advice to manually induce lucid dreams, but it'd be reasonable to hypothesise that if you can gain control of your dreams during these thoughts, you may finally be able to control your subconscious thoughts.

There is no shame in getting professional help, and don't feel like talking about it is against God or something that would get you punished. You haven't hurt anyone, and you don't want these thoughts. You are a good person with strong principles and you need help. Go seek it and don't let these thoughts cloud your mind any longer.

 

Hey. A few things I’d like to tell you.

First of all, like @Daniel S. said, be happy that they come only in your dreams. Psychologically, a person who was abused as a child or exposed to pornography as child has a higher chance of ending up being a pedophile. Most pedophiles will discover that about themselves by their late teenage years. You are 27 bro. You have them only in your dreams. Celebrate.

Secondly, i think it’s best to stop thinking about the whole thing. Do not test yourself with any kind of illegal porn or worse a real toddler. By testing, i mean trying to see if you are aroused by it.

I’m glad you feel so, but please understand that most people start the same way. Trust me, I’ve read some heartbreaking stories on the web, stories along the lines of “I’m a dad with two toddlers. I was disgusted when I first saw a pornographic image with kids. I felt angry. As time went by i realised that i was looking at them more than I should and felt ashamed. Fast forward to today, i was arrested for keeping CP in my possession. I’m now divorced and I’m ashamed and afraid to see my kids....”
Our brains are plastic. Prolonged exposure to anything, can make our brains associate pleasure with it. This is true about Gay porn, teen porn, CP, rape or whatever. So stop toying with the subject and get out of there. Try getting into a relationship if you’re single. Indulge yourselves with adults. Associate “sex” with “adults” only. In your thoughts, voluntarily make this switch whenever such thoughts come around. Replace the bad with the good.

Thirdly, do not be embarrassed or afraid to get help. You haven’t done anything illegal or embarrassing yet. Dreams are a weird phenomena. Science haven’t yet completely figured out the whys, whats and hows about them. In your case, it’s pretty obvious that you get this type of dreams due to your past traumatic experiences. You’ll come out as one of those guys wise enough to acknowledge and address a problem in their lives before they became serious.

Fourthly, you don’t sin in your dreams. Dreams, like temptations, are not sins. They are invitations to sin. You sin when you accept those invitations and start acting on them or flirt with them.

Fifth, you are not the worst person on earth. Neither are you alone. There are people in far deeper and serious issues, who weren’t brave enough to face them head on like you. You don’t need to go too deep on this website to read from such people.

Stay strong my friend.