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12 days in. Benefits and background story before nofap.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Legit1, Oct 15, 2018.

  1. Legit1

    Legit1 Fapstronaut

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    Background Story: So I've heard of nofap from a conspiracy theorist about 4 months back then, and I've went 6 days which was my highest when I 1st engaged and only got a mild feeling of sharpness and confidence. The urges became strong and I gave in and went back to fapping as usual. Now 12 days ago I fapped to porn twice and got mad at myself as I saw my anxiety spiking up and also self confidence was going lower. Every time I fapped after learning that it's bad to do it multiple times daily, I would pay close attention to how I would feel afterwars. So yes, fapping occasionally made me feel anxious, droopy, tired, and having no motivation whatsoever.

    Back then in high school when I was in 10th -12th grade I looked like a Male model as women would say. Got plenty of action with women as they would bust the 1st moves with me. All that has made me feel confident and made me have a powerful ego. Though... I was not a jackass to anybody and still respected women since I've never been a fan of putting people down. I was a humble and respectful person to anyone as long as they weren't 'stuck up', because if you were 'stuck up' then I wouldn't wanna be nowhere near ya. My face was brown and free of pimples and just looked healthy. My hair was manageable and stylish. I also walked with confidence and all that. Btw, I would fap about 1-2 times every week or so.

    After turning 18 I stopped working out when a girl I liked a lot didn't wanted to be with me. Okay, cool, I can't force a girl to like me. But she was basically my sunshine in 12th grade. Now, here comes the hard and stupid part on my behalf... she had a boyfriend for 4 years and here I was trying to get her to like me. But I didnt wanted to like her, I just did because one day she started making small sexual moves at me. She was basically a nerd but looked like a rate of 9, so I digged basically everything about her. Days passed and we started feeling on each other at random times when no one was around. Anyways -- cutting to the chase, it felt like we both liked each other at the end as she would even bite her lip at me and throw me those eyes at me that say "I like you". High school ended and I stopped talking to her for 3 months or so, so I decided to talk to her one day on FB. We talked a couple times, but I think she was already over me as I kept playing it cool and not push myself to show her that I like her. One day she posted a pic of her BF saying that that was her soulmate and all. Alright, cool, I could learn to move on as I've tried for her and didn't got her. 2 days later, she unfriended me. Like... why? What did I do wrong? That was what struck me as it looked like she wanted to break my heart. So basically she doesn't want to be friends anymore? That was when I became emotional as she was a really good friend to me. Made me laugh, made me happy, and just made me feel good to have her around. That's what I would miss the most.

    So after that, everything went downhill. Stopped working out and ended up to fapping because that 5 second orgasm just felt so good. That's where my addiction started... just because losing one girl that was close to me didn't wanted anything with me. I would fap for over 3 years daily. The person I would look at the mirror wasn't the high school version of me. 2 different people. Every time I fapped I would sleep or almost every time I guess. Became lazy and anxious out of nowhere at the age of 19. I looked tired in appearance and even my hair texture changed to looking rough! I would tell myself when did my hair became like this? Shampoo dried my hair so badly! And after I would get some sunlight, I would go back inside and go to the bathroom. My hair looked damaged and just dry, and very tough to manage. My skin tone whent from looking like caramel brown to pale. Basically in appearance sense, I've changed a lot. Self confidence was at an all-time low. I would contemplate what did I do wrong that I went from a guy with confidence and happiness to the complete opposite. Depression was at an all time low that I would day dream about the 'past me' most of the time just to give me hope that I one day I will return to that guy.

    After 12 Days Benefits: Hair doesn't dry up when I use even soap! Soap doesn't has moisturizers like shampoo. My hair will be somewhat dry, but the next day my hair is moisturized and manageable! Not as back then, but it's getting there.

    -Skin tone is getting back to looking brown. Not too much like back then, but I say halfway. Mornings I kinda look pale, but it fades after 30 minutes or so. Oh, and my acne scars which I had for over a year are actually faiding! Thank God for that! Seriously!

    - Anxiety is dropping slightly bit by bit, but it's noticeable. I still have it at around level 6, but it isn't severe. I still love this result as I'm only at day 12.

    - Bloating. Okay, I'm a guy weighing at 136 pounds, but my face has puffed up which was a factor in my social anxiety a lot! Back then my face was slim and the girls liked that back then! Heck, I liked a lot too as I had a nice smile as a result of it. Now I smile and it isn't like back then. But that's okay, because I've seen some progress in reduction.

    - Confidence is slowly going up as well, but it's noticeable to me.

    Why I think nofap works?
    So I've went to a handful websites where it is said that a bunch of energy is used to create sperm. Afterall, it is the thing that plays a role in creating a life. It is also a part of you that you throw away for a 5 second pleasure. This is the way I personally see it -- once you fap, your body will want to create more sperm since you just released some and it will focus on that because that's the one thing that keeps generations going! In the animal kingdom it is said that's the reason why animals fight to the death or just severely just for a female to mate with -- to pass down their family tree. Plus, a lot of animals have mating seasons. Us humans fap all year long which tricks our body that we're doing fine with women and passing our seed down. But in reality, we're really just orgasming to ourselves. I heard that the brain and body doesn't know the difference between sex and a self pleasure orgasm, because in the end you spill your seed. Sperm has your DNA and all, which makes me wonder how that is made. Where does the energy originate from to create more of yourself? Sperm isn't like taking a leak or going #2 because those 2 things are basically the body cleansing itself from toxins and things that your body doesn't need. So in the end, what is so bad of sperm that we're throwing it away all the time? I heard they contain enzymes, minerals, and hormones. Basically a bunch of good things! Search it up yourselves. I said I would fap ever 2 weeks which leads up to 26 times a year, but now I'll fap every 2 months which is 6 times a year. Not to porn! That is not okay in my book anymore. Maybe if the benefits get greater, I'll expand my 2 month rate to 3 months or higher! Maybe even cut it all the way! I'm in no need to fap right now as I'm content with my results! Not worth it to relapse.

    Edit: Forgot to throw this experience out there, but I was once sick about 2 months ago and I fapped just for the heck of it. I think I was in my 2nd day of being sick, but my sickness seemed like it was at a rate of 4. Once I fapped, my fever spiked up, no joke. I felt like crap 10 minutes later! Anyone could try this, but please take my word on this. It actually happened to me. I hated myself for doing that, but I guess it goes to show that the body will rather focus on making more sperm than fighting my sickness? Well, that's the way I took from it on that experience. One last thing, I'm exercising regularly again and taking a nice multivitamin that's from nature along with an omega-3 capsule daily. Gotta take care of myself from now on.
     
    Last edited: Oct 15, 2018
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  2. Pathless path

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  3. overclocked

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    Hey, posting success stories before at least 30 days of nofap is against the rules :eek: and even that is very little in my opinion.

    It's also easy to get tricked as a newbie in the first three weeks. Your brain is releasing dopamine like crazy when you suddenly quit PMO as a regular fapper but soon it will be down regulated and you could even start experiencing withdrawal symptoms at that point.
    This is when your true journey begins.

    Congrats on having made improvements so soon. Nice to see that you are passionate about nofap.
     
  4. ihopewemakeit

    ihopewemakeit Fapstronaut

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    Correct @overclocked . I was a beast in my 1st streak in my journey and now with this second. There is very less magic which used to be there. But i am handling stress well and mind is more clear and composed.
     
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  5. GratifiedSlave

    GratifiedSlave Fapstronaut

    Great going. I would recommend you to just give up masturbation. Believe me, it's worth it :)
     
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  6. Legit1

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    Could be a trick, but these benefits that I've seen are physically noticeable. Thought I would share that out. I've been taking a natural multivitamin and omega 3 oils which I hear is good for sperm. Maybe my body is making more sperm than usual which is leading to quicker results? Got no idea. The way I'm thinking of how I'm getting results so quick is because my body isn't focused on constantly producing sperm. Now it's moving to improve and/or recover other parts of me that need attention. I could be wrong either way, but what matters in the end is that I'm feeling way much better than before I started my streak. Even on my 7th day I believe, I was still feeling the same and nothing was noticeable. But I still wanted to keep on going because I've done plenty of research on NoFap which kept building my faith. I'm on day 14 and only things I'm noticing that's improving still -- is my face reducing some fat little by little and my skin color coming back to the way it was.
     
    Last edited: Oct 17, 2018

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