68 days sober with a very small trick

I well try to keep my topic short and helpful

I used to fight my lust but every time my lust wins. Now I fight “the idea or the concept of Pornography” and so far I’m winning.

When I was 12 years old and some of my friends showed my Porn video the first thing came to my mind was ok can I do this to a woman. And today after 13 years of struggle
I’m trying so hard to convince my self that women are not made for SEX. Whenever I have the idea of watching porn I tell my self to whom I’m watching? To a naked female but what is this female who’s giving me hard time in my life? What is the definition of FEMALE? The definition of female is my mother who made me and gave birth to me the woman is my sister with whom I grew up the definition of female is my daughter whom I well have in the future which became the most beautiful thing in my life. I ask my self can I see my mother who’s female as well having sex and masterbate by watching her? Can I see my sister or daughter they are also women? why not? Or would it be ok for me if someone masterbate to my sister or daughter while they are having SEX? The answer is certainly NO. But the question is why they are also women like any other women? Because PORN made me a Selfish person. Porn made me think that I’m the KING and all other female are my slave not including my family.
I’m changing this thought to all women are like my sisters, mother and daughters. I don’t have the right to see them in that position.


Today I’m trying to convince my self that “like I have only one mother I have only one female with whom I can enjoy and she is my wife or girlfriend” and other females are my sister.