Today is the day!!

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Hi all, new user here. 31 yr old male in a healthy heterosexual relationship. I've had PMO problems pretty much since I found my Dads porn stash when I was 14. This wasn't a gentle initiation into explicit content either. His collection consisted of an array of fetish like material like those older german dvd's with fisting, watersports huge toys etc. This is the primary reason I think my addiction is not just Porn but more Anal porn, fisting, big toys, prolapse etc. It sickens me and I feel gross afterwards but whenever I go surfing thats what im looking for. I've used anal toys previously but got rid of them years ago...only to go down that rabbit hole once more several weeks ago buying all sorts of shapes and sizes. They have since been disposed of which was a huge waste of money but hiding all these things in a relationship is crazy and I feel terrible for doing so. So here I am, at the height of my brain numbing addiction that is affecting me sexually with my fiance, socially as a person and turning me into a person i'm not. I want out of this so here is to day 1.

 

Hi Archi Kat. Thanks for the response. In regards to telling the fiance. I dont think its a secret that I watch. Its the frequency and content that I watch which is unbeknownst to her. As well as the self anal play which has only been a couple of times the past few weeks. I dont know if I will benefit from coming clean to her as much as just getting on with taking hold of the situation and getting a grasp on this problem. Thanks for your support