I started NoFap because of ED

Hey everyone. I want to share you my story, I'll try to keep it as most coherent as I'm able to! I'm 24 years old, beat my meat every day for... I don't know, since I was a kid let's say? 90% of the time I masturbate in front of porn and the rest is with my imagination or just the determination of my right hand ... I can get rock solid in front of porn of simply while jacking myself off.

First of all, I never had any sex before 21 years old until I had my first girlfriend. I always had "success" with girls but I always refused to have sex with them because I was a bit scared (I had a lot of opportunities). I am (as they say) a good looking man, very confident and social. But not in bed...

So I had my 1st girlfriend at the age of 21, and long story short story: sex life was really bad. It wasn't what I thought it was. It was weird. Didn't feel anything while she was doing oral sex. Didn't feel much while having intercourse. Most of the time I had ED and it was embarrassing and I felt ashamed. She felt sad too cause she thought she wasn't enough sexy to make me aroused (which wasn't the case). Led to many sex problems ... By the time, after 8 months together, for MANY other reasons than sex... AND our shitty sex life, we left each other. I can't even remember if we had ONE good night of sex. As a first experience... it was rather disappointing. Whatever, let's continue.

Being finally free as a bird, I told myself: "I waited all these years for this!? F** this. I'll go now do what I want and if a girl wants to have fun with me, well let's do it!".
I still had the possibility in my head that maybe SHE was the problem and she was just not good at all (remember, she was my first one) at doing sex (or at least make it enjoyable)... Next year I slept with 6 or 7 different girls, (sometimes alcohol was in the way, so having ED was probably normal), but some of these nights, I was sober. AND I FELT SO MAD about not being able to have a good erection. Felt the same thing as before, not much libido, not much aroused and being limbed down there. Frustrating. Why can't I be normal... These girl were hot as lava. I can't even believe I couldn't perform around them. AND they were horny too. DAMM.

Then I went for a break, years went by. Did a bit of "flirting this and there". Thinking about my stuff. THAN out of the blue, I met this girl. She is incredible. We are currently in a state of "almost" together (I speak French, and I don't know the exact term of this in English. I know the way I say it sounds really childish but like I said I'm 24 years old, I'm not a child haha, just don,t know the term of it).

We had first intercourse recently but the same thing happened. Couldn't get that hard. She was very good at oral sex. Gotta admit. But I couldn't get hard, like REAL hard ( I was limb and yes I did orgasm but shhhh... still not hard enough go inside her). I felt again ... ashamed. I really wanted to be able to have a good erection this time, same as the one I got in front of my screen or in my bed when I'm lonely. Thought time would've helped me but ... nope.

This is why guys I decided to do the NoFap challenge. I wish to get my libido back, get aroused for real when I have a sexy woman naked in front of me, FEEL her oral sex the way it should be and feel the touch of her skin around mine. Feel what making love to someone is about (I said: "love", I meant "sex"... whatever).

So guys and girl, if you have any pieces of advice for me, or tips, or simply your story about ED related to porn or chronic masturbation. Feel free to share it with me. I'm new here and I need motivation. I want to feel like doing the NoFap challenge is actually working and I'll be goddamm happy when I'll see my results! Thank you very much if you have read everything. I love you guys. Superb community!

 

Thanks a lot buddy for the answer. I really appreciate it. I'm ready for this rollercoaster. I love challenges and I think this one might be the best I never had in my life. I'll give my best but I'll remember that if I failed once, it doesn't mean that I failed entirely. I'll try as most to think about motivation, being happy with my new "girlfriend" and probably talk to her a bit about all that. I'm sure letting her know will help her understand and I'll feel less stressed when we are intimate together. I'll give you feedback that is for sure. Once again, thanks for answering. Means a lot to me.