[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 61/90

 

Day 6

 

This helps me understand the seriousness of my PMO problem:
"As with all forms of addictions, sexual addictions are secretive, fraught with denial, deception, and minimization, and are progressive. The destructive behavior continues in spite of the positive intentions of the addicted person. No longer free to fully choose their behavior, they are instead driven by secret, shameful compulsions." - Breaking Everyday Addictions, David Hawkins

 

I am into the challenge.. day 0

 

Day 5/90 (overall 45 Days)
Ok guys, I`m in a totaly shit situation. Few days ago I got an accident with the car from my Dad (ouh shit), next day my wisdom tooth was pulled (it still hurts ) and my girlfriend just broked up with me 2 days ago. I feel the urges to porn are coming again and I feel totally shit, no motivation for sport/school or something else. Also everybody annoys me (except my friends and family). I just don`t know what to do. I don`t want to be in that vicious circle again :/...

 

I can imagine what you might be feeling. If it was me, I would treat myself with kindness and patience, the way someone would treat a close friend who needed help. I would advise myself to focus on what I can do to take care of myself. Then start taking those steps, one at a time. I would tell myself not to try to do too much at once. Just one thing at a time, and if one step is too big to confront, break it into even smaller steps until I can find something I can actually do that helps.

 

Slipped on day 27, a little frustrated (few days back). Second slip since starting about 62 days ago. Started with searches for swimsuit images and such with the rationalization that it wasn't porn - very bad idea. My abstaining from porn will now include any internet searches for images of women's bodies (clothed or unclothed).

Another issue was a fear that I would act out on some weird fantasy (which I never have) and I told myself that porn and masturbation was a lesser evil. This is connected with my OCD issues. I have used P&M for a long time as an escape from disturbing thoughts connected with my OCD, since it works for a short time before it flares up again worse then before. I guess that's all part of the addictive cycle - momentary relief followed by increased distress.

 

3/90 sexual energy must be used to create something (life, business, physical fitness, art, music)

 

I’m done with day 9 now..
The last time I went so far, I relapsed on day 12... but I know I can do a lot better than that...

 

Day 44/90.

 

Day 0..Quite unhappy relapse after just 5 days

 

When shit happens it usually happens all at the same time, be strong, you can overcome anything! I don't think you are looking for advice, so I won't give any, just know that this will pass, and you'll be stronger after it

 

Day 14/90 *Second week!*. Good week overall. I've noticed that posting near the end of the day gives me a rewarding feeling and something to focus on before sleep, so Win-Win! Had a dream that woke up some urges, but kept them under control. Keep it up everyone!

 

Day 1

 

Mine too best of luck

 

Day 3

 

29/90

 

Day 3/90. It's best tool ,instead of telling family member we can keep the track of it ..I love Allah ...who gave me the right path..

 

88 Days left. Nice number. I have urge but I choose to face the pain from urge rather than from regret. Lets go boiis!!

 

Day 7