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Remembering the first time I reached 120 days noPMO

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by EliasGreen, Aug 7, 2018.

  1. AssxxI

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    Since quitting PMO I'm also not able to sleep more than 8 hours anymore. Before I was able to be 10 hours in bed or sometheing and didn't want to stand up.
     
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  2. EliasGreen

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    Yes. It is funny that you mentioned it, I'm also not able to sleep more than that. It really stresses me if I lay more than 8 hours in bed.

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    Also: I'm in a flatline. My view on flatline has drastically changed. In my opinion, flatlines are the best things which can happen to you.
    Only during the flatline I can sit down, not walk away from myself by doing stuff.

    My flatline is kind of funny / interesting:
    All kind of negative assumptions pop up in my head and now I truly see that all those years I was running away from self-judgement. I didn't want to see what I "really" thought about myself.

    The thing is: I do not really think bad of myself. And those assumptions do not arrive from the inner critic.
    In fact, it is the inner child, which tries to communicates its worries to you. But like a (4 year old) child, it cannot communicate appropriately.

    So, instead of telling me "Dear Elias, I worry about that some people might not like you. I have fear that they will laugh about you",

    my inner child tells me "People don't like you... they could laugh about you".

    So. I always used to think "Wtf? Am I a person which you can laugh at for no reason?"
    It dragged me down. The voice of this 4 year old dragged me down. But in reality, it just wanted me to handle its worries, to care for this little inner child.

    I cannot longer ignore or punish this sweet little inner ME (like my parents unconsiously did).
    I will listen to him and tell him, that there is nothing to worry about and that I understand his worries.

    I hope this helps you.

    Best regards,

    Elias Green
     
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  3. AssxxI

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    Good luck on your journey. Sounds like the key is not to care about what others think about you.
     
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  4. Hi Elias.
    Thank you for your posts here in this thread. I've just read the first one and there are many interesting insights. I like your descriptions of triggers and also the results of relapsing. It is good work that might be helpful for us in a moments of weakness as well as for you. I could reccomend you to try my first article here - there are written my method and insights. It might be useful for you.
    What is really very interesting for me - when you talk about colourfullnes of the world. That is suprising - because I see it totally same. Actually I've told someone here the same thing a few days ago. That if you relapse and do it again, the life fall into grey. The trouble is (with every addiction) that for some time, you feel like the only things which can make it colorfull again is pmo. It's not obviously. And that's something as a mechanism of addiction - if you abstain, you can see only the grey and everything starts to be very dramatic. That's why it is very difficult to leave at the beggining. Because the colours come only after some longer time. And it also takes some time to realize it.

    Well, as I wrote somewhere else. I've decided to abstain again a week ago. I've had a month of relapsing after three months streak. And I realised my resignation. Mindset is also very important and I've forgot on it for some time. So now I am going for the succes. I wish you the same. Cheer up and go for it.
     
  5. Porn No More

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    Great post! Thanks for sharing and being an inspiration to us
     
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  6. EliasGreen

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    I was often in this very same kind of situation. You relapse, then your motivation for NoPMO goes down. Then you talk to yourself that you don't need NoPMO and that it doesn't affect anything.. Until it hits you and you start doing NoPMO again.

    Very effective for me was to write a page containing "What kind of pain do I feel because of PMO?"
    The list was long. Every time I look at that page to not forget where I came from.

    ___

    And thx to other users. Glad it could help you.

    Best regards
    Elias
     
  7. This is great. Many thanks!
     
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  8. woodyplaysbass

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    Just what I need to hear! Thanks for sharing.
     
  9. Randox

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  10. PowerfulSRE

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    Amazing, Thank you for sharing. Good Luck!
     
  11. DaniAK6

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    Inspiring man, one day I will reach 120 days too.

    Congrats
     
  12. Asgardian36

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    what a sweet and beautiful post about nofap benefits, man! I loved it! Thanks for posting.
     
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