And I have to start again, didnt watch porn but still masturbated. This time I wont stop trying and trying and trying.
Hey Chaging4theB33t3r, i have to disappoint you! The urge will not go away. There are days it is not so strong, but the next day it almost hit you out of your socks. I think the key lies in feeling the urge but not giving it the power to change your mind. I wish you success Dennis
Hello @Chaging4theB33t3r The thing is that urges are the strongest in the first couple of days. As you go further in the reboot it gets easier (they can still pop up suddenly after 120 days but you need to prepare your mind in front for them). I read in some book that we can have only one thought at the time, and It is true, try to think about two things at the same time Impossible... So use this, when urges came, just start to think about something else, It cant lasts forever. And remember, The longest you will ever have to go without porn is a single day. Stay strong!
I think today is day 67 or 68. Was tempted to j/o a few days ago but stopped myself from continuing. Can’t remember the trigger, I was pretty tired…
5TH DAY : without urges , feeling relaxed and head feels to be lighter . This time , I have promised to be away from all triggers and will try my best to achieve what I have decided . Though lucky to come across such a great site It had helped me to learn a lot about the ill affects of porn and pmo . Really lucky and blessed to come across this site otherwise life would have been hell as usual .
Crap - relapsed today. I really thought I could make it to 90 days on my first try. Not really sure why it happened, I guess I shouldn't over analyze. I am starting again right now. Right now I am still feeling the temporary relief from the compulsion and urges. I know the next couple of days are going to be really tough though.