Closing in on a month

I'm writing to encourage those that are struggling and celebrate my [almost month] long reboot. Just to give some quick background, I've been struggling with porn and masturbation pretty much ever since I was in my late 20s. I'm now in my mid 40's. I've struggled and struggled for many years. I really don't know why but despite sex being great and all I always gravitated toward fantasy.

If it wasn't for the fact that I have kids I think I would have considered suicide. I just felt like this was something I was never going to kick. I'm still not out of the woods but I'll tell you what happened recently that helped me start a reboot process that I believe will be successful. I haven't dated in a few years because I can't perform in bed thanks to ED. I'm so incredibly lonely. I got so fed up with feeling that way that earlier this month I just stopped.

It's been a bear, I can't watch much TV because there's pretty women all over the place. I've been doing things more outdoors and away from electronics. I've been going to the gym and cutting way back on alcohol. I want a woman in my life, a partner. The worst part of the day is when I wake up...I don't know why but that's when I'm weak. I've had to get up and get busy with my day to get the temptation to leave me alone. Once I do, I'm pretty good the rest of the day.

I'm angry with how this has affected my life and how I let this happen. I'm using that anger as energy to make things right. You either do it or you don't. For those who think they can't beat this...you can. If I can do this so can you. I was hook line and sinker addicted.