Yoshaay’s Redemption

Hello everyone, my name is Matt or Yoshaay. I’m 17 years old from New Jersey and 3 years ago I signed up for what I believed to be an easy fix in my life. I thought rewiring my brain and rebooting would be easy... Fuck no. Trying to come off of this addiction is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life and I think I made a big mistake my givingn up and leaving NoFap. I’ve decided to return, hopefully this time I will see more positive results in my journey. I’ve wased so much time I could have been spendong with friends & family or doing stuff I actually enjoy like gaming or playing basketball. Porn is a really big time waster and I hate how it has consumed so much of my childhood. I discovered porn in sixth grade one day and I was instantly hooked. It’s like a drug. Once you watch it a few times, you keep coming back. I’m also not happy with the way my life has been going. I’m in my junior year of highschool and I’m a decent student don’t get me wrong, but I wonder what type of grades and extracurricular activites I could have achieved had I not been hooked to porn. I also have very little friends and very little support. I hate myself and I hope that this website is a stepping stone to fix that issue. Thank you for reading and good luck to everyone on their NoFap journies.

 

Hi. Welcome back to forum!

Make sure you create a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation.

I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges and triggers. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain. It is a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body. Check out this Ted talk, it gives a good idea of what's it about when it comes to philosophy. As far as practical side of it there is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations to get you started.

Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!