A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

Day 1. It was much harder to stop watching porn than I thought :/

 

0 days ...

I relapsed yesterday after making it to 67 days.
That was a great streak, never imagined it to be possible. I know now what really is possible.
My new streak starts today.
But I will spend less time on Nofap because it keeps me away from things I have to get done in my life right now.
Failing in the latter caused me to relapse.

Have a great day ya'll!

 

Sorry to hear that hat did you relapse p m or o?

 

Day 68 of an unknown number at this point ,yesterday was a little hard I was a little tired I drank some and now it’s time to stop that altogether. At the same time I’m weaning off of these antidepressants through the love of God and love of my wife. I have to make sure that I’m doing a little bit at a time so I don’t go to tailspin. I’m currently taking 50% of what I was five days ago and then I’ll start taking 30% win and all the way down to zero before I go back to work since I am off this week.

 

Does there any way to get the same feeling of remorse, guilty, etc. of reset while on streak? I really need those feeling now without resetting my counter.

 

13/29

Things are going really hard here,

Real, it's so hard to pass today and I fear that I'll relapse right after I write this. P-Subs ing, fantasizing, even struck with P dream of my deepest fear's fetish. Thing is really hard here. The only thought that if I pass this I'll be able to gather with my family without regret in next 2 week save me. However, my brain is trying to trick me too. With me founding the basic of reset, where the chaser effect resides on the first 3 week, my brain is trying to use them to trick me.

^copy pasted from my journal

 

Your mind is in charge of youf brain, pray close your eyes and say would Jesus approve of the actions my brain want?, or what My mind, spirit, heart, soul knows?

 

Drive it off, in cost of my study time...i think it'll ruin my tomorrow's exam..

 

3/3
3/5

 

1/5

It is. Stay strong man, it's worth it.

Be careful the coming days to not binge. Stay strong.

Take care. You're doing amazing.

Good one. I don't know, but although it's a negative feeling, sometimes I really need it. Take care and stay strong the coming days. It'll only get easier.

Nice Keep it up!

 

74/90

Ive been stuck in a flatline for what seems like forever.. Its been making the days on nofap fly by with no urges to contend with. This is fine and all but im lacking the energy and motivation needed to work and do daily tasks.

 

so guys have decided to quit the nofap forum until i reach day 90. I feel as if im spending too much time online here so i have decided to give it a rest for a while.

I have already blocked nofap forum use on my phone and will do so on my computer now until day 90 (both actions cannot be undone once the blocker starts, i use coldturkey blocker and it works fantastic).

Its time to do some re-wiring, goodbye to all on here and ill see you all at 90 days.

 

Day 25/30..

 

1/7

 

2/100

 

Day 2

 

Haven’t been active on here as much because a couple of days ago I walked right up to relapsing and I feel guilty about it. I p-subed until the images got too close to porn, then I, erm, over showered, then I watched a film which I knew would have nudity in it, and I knew that was the only reason I was watching it. When it became obvious it wasn’t a real film but just an excuse for a series of sex scenes I turned it off. While I didn’t pmo I still feel kind of disappointed in myself and that I should reset. I also know that I need you guys and can’t afford to disengage.

 

0/7. damn. gotta be all out rn.

 

Day 0 of 30

 

Today is day 69 I feel really good I think I'm definitely rebooting and rewiring the first time yesterday my wife's realized that I don't even care about porn I don't even care about masturbation all I care about is mutual sex having an orgasm with my wife. nothing more all I know is when she's ready is when we will do it and I have to pin my faith in God and my wife that we will reboot our marriage. I have forgiven myself and it's still a process I'm ready to take this as long as it'll take 90, 120, 180 whatever number comes up I feel I've got more confidence to be able to do this I'm also stop drinking and I'm work work weaning my way off of antidepressants peace to all fapstronauts don't stop your journey remember only you can stop forest fires (pmo) not Smokey the Bear hardmode pmo is the only way to go willpower, obidience, stamina, delayed gratification, discipline, mind controls brain, empathy, clear thoughts, purity just some of even more reasons to stop hardmode pmo is the only real way to go, relapse times for me 0. God is great god is good.