I've been trying to quit this for a long time - first post here

Hello everybody.

I have decided to unsubscribe from r/NoFAP and sign up here on this forum to take a more prominent attempt to quit this harmful habit once for all.

I don't consider my problem an addiction - I leave that phrase for people whose lives have been actually damaged by pornography. In my case, the porn is not causing that many bad things - it just prevents plenty of better things from happening.

I am 22 years old. I have been watching porn since I was maybe ten years old. I have been trying to quit it for about three years now. My best streak was 21 days. Looks disastrous now that I have written it down. Especially because I have been continuously improving in all other areas of my life and made virtually no progress in this one.

I have excellent grades, decent work experience and I am planning to start a full-time job around September at my final year of studies. I am a generally liked person with decent looks and style. The only issue I have is that I have never had sex or had a serious relationship despite many opportunities to achieve those things. Watching porn depleted my drive to interact with women romantically, especially during high school. I had the most beautiful girls that I have ever met within my reach, and I just didn't have the balls to risk it. Because why would I? Friends will be gossiping; I might do something wrong; the relationship will require overcoming a few things. Porn provided an easy and instant fix for my desires.

I am not in any miserable situation. I am a person who lives a happy life, but I feel that defeating the habit of porn and masturbation would allow me to drop the shackles that have been holding me back from greater and more meaningful things in life.

My goal, for now, is simple: 30 days without pornography or masturbation. On June 3rd I leave for a holiday in Spain, and I would like to go there on my best streak.

Things that I want to do to help me achieve this goal:

• tracking all my important habits (I use an Excel sheet for that)
• meditating and excercising daily
• writing at least 1 meaningful post a day on this site

Thank you for reading my post. I would be very greatful for any advice.

 

Hi. Welcome to forum! Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!

 

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Glad you're here and good luck!!