Worried I'm damaged for life

I'm not sure if I can help, but I'm willing. Maybe elaborate more. I can tell you that over a shitload of years porn started changing what turned me on. transgendered person stuff became a lot of what I was looking at and started having desires. To try it. The thought of how I would feel afterwards makes me ill. I've only been away from it for a little over a week and I just don't think about it if it's not in front of my face. It almost feels like some evil agenda...

 

Time to fix your day counter - it says you have 29 days.

7 days is so little - this shit takes time. You didn't get into this condition in just 7 days, did you? Then it will take more to get out of it.

The fact that you got any progress in 7 days is very encouraging.

No kidding - I've got the same. But it has improved, significantly. You need more time.

This is super common here - stop PMOing and give it time.

 

Find a deeper reason to stop porn besides your sex life I believe once you do that it will help you I use to think I was doing this just to be able to have sex and attract women but the more I abstained I realize it’s much deeper than that porn was an escape from reality and pain from negative experiences that I didn’t know how to face but now I see the bigger picture it was one of the hugest sources of guilt holding me back from living my life let alone trying to find a girlfriend on this journey ask bigger questions and you will find deeper truths about yourself that you couldn’t while porn distracted you

 

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You make a very good point. Many things change including desire to take care of the normal routines in life. When using PMO I didn't really feel like doing anything. Much better now. That and you surely will not have to do it alone. There is great support here if you participate!

 

Yes, I need to do this.

 

I was thinking that too and felt sick about trust me stay away from it and those thoughts will go away getting into the transwoman genre was a big red flag for me because I knew it wasn’t really me

 

Tell me about it. I'm on day 0, again. Oh well.

 

I just read Underdogs latest post and I think it's very helpful. If we don't fix the underlying problems like emotions we don't want to feel and the plethora of other problems that plague us and we escape for a bit with PMO, only to find we are xyz again and trying to escape it with PMO. It's like a dry drunk. He may not be drinking, but all his problems are there. That's what just counting days is like I think.

 

Word of warning. Underdogs posts are a book. It takes awhile to get through it.

 

Now that I look it was not his latest post. I'll try to find it.

 

Nofap is a journey. It can't be completed in a matter of a few weeks or months.

Expect to be at it for a long time. It is not a linear process but you do progress