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Was about to relapse due to urges after flatline but then this happened.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by 31shotscrazy, Apr 14, 2018.

  1. 31shotscrazy

    31shotscrazy Fapstronaut

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    Scrolling through Instagram, and then my brain tricks me into searching for a random chick, I click on it and low and behold, I'm scrolling through p-subs and next thing you know I'm stroking over her feet. However this whole act was around 1:30 minutes so I'm not gonna consider it a relapse.

    I then drop my phone and think to myself "wtf am i doing?" Then I hop in the shower, the urge still presists. I try my best not to indulge in the act so i turn the water on then off and I'm back here writing this.

    Whenever you get an urge - just remember, it's a delusion, a trick from the devil, a scam to relapse, so just STOP!
     
  2. innermostheart

    innermostheart Fapstronaut

    Thanks for sharing. I am also starting to feel urges and temptation. But im really concentrating to not break a record of NoFap for life.
     
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  3. Congrats on fighting off the urge man. Stay strong.

    "Often times difficult paths lead to beautiful destinations"
     
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  4. dangon master

    dangon master Fapstronaut

    Tha
    thats amazing brother wow i m happy alot to hear this how you handle your urgue dude you know you made your will power level up by saying no to your addiction once your do repeatedly it will be no more
     
  5. dangon master

    dangon master Fapstronaut

    Dude this is the process second and third week you will get urgues then slowly they will start getting low but second and third week you will get alot of urgues you will feel like hell or you will feel like i did nothing is my life i totally waste at that moment just remember one thing this is a process
     
  6. 31shotscrazy

    31shotscrazy Fapstronaut

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    Okay, can i just say because I'm somebody whos been through hell from withdrawrals and flatlines as well as urges. I'm gonna have to say having urges is 100 time better than being in the flatline - depressed, unmotivated ect. So even if you feel like hell due to urges, appreciate it, because there are worse things.
     
  7. 31shotscrazy

    31shotscrazy Fapstronaut

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  8. Aw man. Well it sucks, but it happens to the best of us. Start again and hopefully this will be the time.

    "It's okay to fall seven times as long you get up eight"
     
  9. innermostheart

    innermostheart Fapstronaut

    What does flatline exactly mean? If that means depressed unmotivated i may have been through flatline sometime.
    Yesterday i was surfing youtube vids and started to notice women on the video cover there were titles like "i want to have a baby prank" "would u consider being on porn" and I stared for a while then later on i hitted on i want to have a baby prank. It is nothing porn but if youre staring at the girl's reaction you might be watching porn soon.
    So i get this things but i haven't put my self in a position where in i go directly to p sites anymore or search for porn.
    But i had yesterday looking at the front cover videos of girls you know looking good and like attracting but not naked it was just on the feeds but i didnt search for it directly.
    Damn you know.
    I dont wanna go again and be like lost in control of myself while surfing just like what happened before ill be surfing youtube then all of the sudden im staring at girls then i found myself surfing for like asian kiss. And girls related videos.
    I dont wanna go back there again.
    Im thinking to clear cashe cookies my phone and uhm...
    Yeah.
     
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  10. innermostheart

    innermostheart Fapstronaut

    Pick up yourself and try again. Also don't forget how awful the experience was after pmo. Which will give you drive to stay away from it
     
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  11. Soren K.

    Soren K. Fapstronaut

    @31shotscrazy, why did you relapse?

    Beforehand, you obviously knew that you had urges and combatted them by going on NoFap and telling us about it, but what happened after that? Why did you fall?

    I just want to understand (and for you to know) why you relapsed so that you can learn from it. It's one thing to identify your urges. It's an entirely different ball game combatting those urges correctly, whichever way is best for you, personally.
     
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  12. 31shotscrazy

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    I guess it was the immense difference between being in a flatline for 90% of the time and having an intense urge. I got way too confortable in that "0 libido state" that i forgot what an urge was, it was about 6 - 7 months since i last remembered what they were because ive been on nofap for 161 days if you don't count the 2 relapses. I fought 2 battles today, 1 in the morning (which i won) and at night where social media was fully to blame. Instagram - to be precise, stumbled across a twerking video then looked at the comments and there were more thots. I was thinking "what is the purpose of them showing their bodies? Do they want me to relapse?" So my brain started rationalising bullshit to relapse. So i did when my intention was to sleep, but looked on Instagram.

    This is an extremely tough war - The good news is, I think I'm fully rebooted to never ever watch full blown porn again but p subs are bringing me down.

    Also lastly, when i relapsed yesterday, I quickly wrote down something on paper to remind me never to do it again. "The urge overshadows the pleasure". Which basically means the urge you have is larger and bigger than the outcome - pleasure. Therefore it's not worth it. It's like trading in a $/£10 with a $/£5 the way i see it.
     
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  13. innermostheart

    innermostheart Fapstronaut

    Youre right buddy it is extremely tough battle.
    But have a goal. Write down and imagine what would it be like for you if you nofap for long time. What do you see in yourself?
    Have a vision for yourself of what you want to be. Like you want to be clean spiritually physically?
    Then when you vision. Write down your motivation to stay clean in order to stay in right direction towards your vision.
    The when u feel urges temptation or flatline think and look at the vision you wrote down as well as your motivation for staying clean. I believe this will help you.
     
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  14. 31shotscrazy

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    Thank you so much man, that's a good technique to not relapse. By using goals/ visions as motivation. Good luck with ur streak
     
  15. "Masturbation is like an all you can eat buffet. It sounds good at the time but you never come away feeling good afterwards"
     
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  16. Soren K.

    Soren K. Fapstronaut

    Dude, well done! Continue to fight the good fight! I know how you feel about fully rebooting. We think that we are well, but we are not. We are better, but not well.

    Perhaps consider removing social media from your phone? Obviously Instagram was a trigger for you. What do you have to lose if you uninstall it? Fear of Missing Out?

    One strategy that helps me is that if I am feeling tempted to relapse, I will recall from memory what I will feel like after I relapse (ie. hollow, drained, ashamed, fill in the blank) before I even start relapsing. All of us know that our brains trick us that PMO will satisfy our desires, and we also know deep down that we will feel awful after a relapse. So recalling what I'll feel like after a relapse when I'm feeling tempted helps me out.

    Perhaps write on a sheet of paper all of the things that P is (eg. Porn is a lie. Porn is disgusting. Porn is deceiving). Porn appears attractive in our eyes because we don't see it as unattractive.
     
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  17. dangon master

    dangon master Fapstronaut

    this is a pattern brother thats why there is one rule i follow no social media because they are trigger
    like fb->random videos or pics -> porn
    there are many let me tell you mine feeling low lets go to fb and see some women online got no one go to instagram got no one go to whatsapp got no one go to youtube let see something entertaining bcoz my mind want dophamine because its rewiring i want fucking instant happiness which is stopped now my mind is going crazy then you dont get happiness on any social sites then you hit porn so i m telling dont use digital life watch movies but make a plan like i want to watch the matrix movie i made a plan i downloaded that movie and i will watch it soon here i wont relapse you know why because there is no random surfing no autopilot mode i hope this msg was helpful
     
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