Completely freed from Pornography

Hey everyone.

Some of you may know me, though most won't probably. I just feel like I have to share how I got completely freed from this filth. I have been an addict to pornography since I was about 13-14. And I'm 21 now. I couldn't go a day without pornography. When I was around people (military) I was okay because I didn't have a moment for myself. But as soon as I was home alone, BAM, the urge came in. I just had to do it. When I tried to battle it, I would just ejaculate at night. It's the only thing I could think about. I was chained to this, though I wanted so badly to get out, and honestly I thought I was doing it mainly for God (because I'm a believer) but there came a time when I wanted to be free for me, to have self control.

I opened multiple threads here, sometimes I did it with myself (tracking) because nobody ever replied to my threads and it felt like I needed more encouragement but that wasn't it. So one day I just decided (for the 100th time+..) that I'm done for good. And two weeks later, there was a Power and Love conference by Todd White, during which I seeked God. And I received tangible presence of the Holy Spirit. I have been completely freed from this sin. It has no dominion over me any longer, I'm frankly not even drawn by it any longer. I now spread the love of our Creator and Messiah, I pray for people and they get healed. I felt I had to share this here because it's just so easy. I battled this garbage by my own works for almost 4 years. The moment I invited the Holy Spirit to come and wash me, I was just done with it. When I denied myself and decided to follow Jesus, it was all over.

Now I know there may be people who do not believe, or some that may. It doesn't matter. I felt the urge to share this because I have been completely delivered from this after so many years of battling with this. I remember going 2 weeks without pornography but I was so horny, and felt like I was about to explode. Everything is different. I have no need in it, and in fact I love God and I'm the temple of His Spirit now, I don't want to defile it. I truly just don't want to.

Victory!

Feel free to ask any questions, I'll be happy to answer them all.

 

Hey man. Glad to hear that. However I see some things that are wrong in what you're saying, which I was guilty of as well.
I always thought I had to clean myself before coming to God. This is like saying you need to clean yourself before you take a bath. God is the bath. Come to him with all that you are. Secondly, I see that you commit yourself to turn to God wherever you have an urge. That is wrong bro. You have to turn to him with all that you are, your entire being. Give him everything and you will be delivered from porn, and everything else. Galatians 5:16 says "walk by the Spirit and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh". I want to urge you to walk by the Spirit. Jesus told us to deny ourselves, pick up the cross and follow Him! If we only deny the porn part of our lives, we will still be bound by it. I used to think Christianity is boring, but oh my, there is nothing better! I have been praying for the sick, and seeing them healed instantly. I have actual relationship with God now. I love Him with everything that I am, and therefore I don't even have the desire to come to porn. I remember when I went two weeks without it and would have wet dreams everyday. Today, over a month without it, and I'm not bothered by it one bit! You know, we can't do it by our own strength. We need His Spirit, we need a new heart. We can't afford to just turn to Him in this area. Turn to Him with everything that you are, and you will see deliverance.

 

I feel like you resemble myself back in the days. It's not about a belief system or religion. It's about relationship with the King! You could watch Todd White's videos, even healing videos and see what I mean by that. It's not what you probably think of when the word 'Christianity' is spoken. We were called to be light, unlike most Christians today. We were called to deny ourselves, pick up the cross and follow Jesus.

 

It's grace, it's a gift open for everybody who asks. I discovered that when I was frustrated like you are, I just hadn't given him everything in my life. I kept Jesus a secret. I kept playing video games although I knew that was a waste of time. I kept seeing non-believing friends and drinking with them. Once I denied myself (obviously not my friends, but I no longer went out to drink with them, I no longer played video games), I allowed Jesus to come in my life and literally possess me with his Holy Spirit. I started spending time in the secret place. I started praying for the sick and seeing them healed instantly. I had 3 encounters with the Holy Spirit (tangible). After this I couldn't even go back to porn. God so loved me that he gave his only Son to die for me. To suffer for me. A good movie to illustrate what he did for us is 'The Passion of the Christ'. After you realize just how much he loves you, you are going to love him. And when you love God/Jesus with all your heart, might and soul, you will not even want to come close to pornography, or anything else that separates between you and Him. When you taste his presence and his love, you can never go back. You just don't desire it any longer. Obviously I still have lust to an extent, since my flesh is sinful. However I am much more in control because the Holy Spirit is within me. I hold my thoughts captive. I hope this makes sense.

 

It's simple, people complicate it - deny yourself, pick up the cross and follow Jesus. I'm guessing you just didn't deny yourself yet. This isn't just porn, it's your entire being.