PMO90 Journey

Adkar : Day 1:[Battle: Me vs Universe's strongest urge]
Yesterday night was my Green Porn Shoot.
From today, I am on a NoFap 90 day journey.
Lets see how it goes.

Want I want to accomplish in this 90 days. [Reason for the Battle/ What to gain from the battle]
1. Quit porn and come out of its grip over my life.
2. Use the time I get to improving English Language Pattern and Preparing for JLPT N2
3. Exercise Goals: [Calesthenics] 50x2 Pusups. 25x2 pullups. Pistol Situps. Handstand.
4. Explore deeper levels of the mind/awareness/consciousness. Increase NoThought mode time span.
5. Find out what to do with my life.
6. Increase the Quantum Access Mechanism and Memory in the mind.
7. Develop will power and self-control

Current understanding of life.
1. We are living in this illusion of duality. Our goal is to realize this illusion and experience an unimaginable bliss and ecstasy with an awareness of the whole universe in this Body-Mind-Energy arrangement.
2. When these three BME are in perfect alignment, everything will happen to us the way we want things to happen. We will be 100% clear of the effects of consequences of most of our actions. Outside world does not cause irritation inside the mind.
3. Realize the temporary and impermanent nature of life, desires and sensations.
4. At the time of our death, we will have accomplished a better understanding of the above three points. Until we reach 100% of this understanding, we will not experience the whole universe in a living experience.

 

Hi Roady!
That is some awesome emotional boost! Thank you very much.
I am gonna make my journey a story.

Day 2 [Journey into the Battlefield]
I pick up my polished leather handled Plasma Gun and my NoFap PDA. This PDA would give me all the instructions I need to get to win the battle. I enter our Homebase Hangar and open the door of my spaceship spaceship named "Nature-90", which will be heading to a planet infested with virus affected beasts. These were humans before. But, due this P-Virus, most of them who were not resistant against it got infected. They are everywhere. I left earth in the year 3074 and I am on my way to the Planet "Selfcon".

Hope poured into my heart, to win the battle from my buddy named Roady.
We will be going in a smaller vessel once we land our spaceship in the "FloatingBase" a space station near Slefcon, to join a few more buddies stationed in an island called "Island Martin". We know that there are people in there, but we don't know who exactly are in there. We will soon find out.
This is a battle to get hold of an anomaly somewhere in deepspace, which will give us access to unknown capabilities and Inner Fire or let's call it InFire. With InFire, we get deeper access to our minds which have many other hidden treasures.

 

Day 6 [I won the first fight]
Day 3, Day 4, Day 5, I was busy at work. So, I did not PMO.
Day 6: Friday Night.

This was the hardest in the past three months. Every weekend I would PMO about 5-6 times.
But today, it was different. Just before sleeping, I am writing this post. I am super happy that I made it till today.
The same urge comes to me. I am trapped. But then, I go to the mirror and invent the following technique out of thin air.

[Mirror Technique] [30 minutes is the key]
I go to the mirror, and start talking to myself.
I was hungry as well. I abstained from buying meat and fish to just buy vegetables.
Used hunger to reduce the convenience of watching porn. I tell myself the whole process of masturbating.
I tell myself "Every single time I open my laptop, watch the same porn, definitely not to deny the girls being beautiful and erotic, stroke my cock for hours, and finally before ejaculating think that all of this is going to end now, and then take a screenshot of the girl I am going to shag. Then I would just cum. Experience the orgasm for a few seconds, and then the feeling of regret overpowers me. I start hating myself for the next few days. All this is real, but the girls are not. My energy is wasted. But energy is not created or destroyed, but conserved. What is the point in wasting this energy. If it is the urge, I need a hack to weaken and overpower the urge using my mind." This mirror conversation lasted for about 30-40 minutes. But this was a hard battle. For a few seconds I would decide to not watch porn, then this urge would come back. But after about 30 minutes, I started winning against my urge. And every bit of effort is worth it. Effort is 100% rewarding.

I think this made my mind come into terms with avoiding porn for the day.
Also, it gave my mind a feeling of having gone through all the stages of masturbating to porn.
This urge lasted for about 30 minutes. Then, I was hungry, but the urge to masturbate was less. I sat down and meditated for 20 minutes. Then I cooked this veggie meal and then took an hour long walk, even though it was 11 pm.
Now I am satisfied. But I highly assume this urge to come back rushing again. But now I have a tool. I will use the mirror technique again and give updates here.
Cheers.

Today's lesson:
Porn is an energy virus. Human Energy Virus. HEV.
And the cure, I guess, is in controlling the urge for 30 minutes, and doing something (anything, even stupid things are ok) with the energy gained. If we do not do anything, then this will energize the PMO thoughts and the urge gets back in power. Energy MUST be used. WILL/Intelligence should direct this energy.