My Insane Problem

Okay so im 18, i used to watch regular porn like every other man, but then normal porn just got boring and didnt turn me on. I wanted better orgasms. Its crazy what im about to say since ive told nobody, and this is the only place im going to tell anyone.

Right so: I began to use my mums dildo on myself as it really turned me on and gave me a volcanic orgasm, im not gay, im completely and only into women, but i just was experimenting, ive done it around 40 times.

But then that wasnt enough for me... I then looked at 'Satanic' Porn. As satan is a bad guy then are like women who seduce you to like him and shit and im a strong believer in Jesus, and yeah... I let it get to me and i started tossing off to people saying 'fuck jesus' 'Your a sinner, sin for me'.

I've even enjoyed cross dressing myself into girls clothes and makeup but only about twice since i genuinely feel straight and felt that was too gay.

But yeah... i really need help. I have a girl im talking too who really likes me and i like her back, but i really want to quit masturbating.

Whenever i masturbate it gives me spots. Im surprised no one else gets this either but literally since my testosterone level get out of hand my skin starts building red spots everywhere.

Please help me.