A Progressive Challenge-A different kind of challenge- all levels

Such a stupid mistake. I watched some hentai. Restarting my counter.

 

Hi Guys,

another report. Had some more serious urges in the last days, maybe because of this girl I have been chatting in the past days. I do not really know whether I want a relationship or not (another girl I had a huge crush on rejected me basically the last week, so looking for a new one may not have been a best idea), and in times of uncertainty I tend to relapse, so I need to be a bit more careful now.
I can manage not to relapse, but I start to realize that this is going to be tougher than I expected if I do not change somehow.

 

Sometimes you have to work on yourself first before you can fully enjoy others. A girl will come to you the longer you go through this process. I read on here all the time of guys who have been over PMO for a few months and girls are hitting on them all the time. Good luck.

Sincerely

 

Day 16. Strong urges today. Too much time mindlessly surfing the internet, but managed to resist all urges. Close Call. Need to stay busy.

 

Heal yourself before you chase. Its not fair on her if she is just a P sub for you and not fair on your own recovery. By all means chat to her and get to know her and be a friend. But concentrate on getting yourself sorted and be vigilant.

 

I am glad I relapsed last night. Its taught me a valuable lesson. Recently been taking Jiu Jitsu classes and I have excelled at them. Focus, power, determination. But last nights fail made me lack all of those.

Todays lesson I was all over the place, u focused and tripping over myself. Lack of confidence damaged me. I don't want my next lesson to feel that way. The guy I was tonight was weak. A shadow of what I can be.

I have hopefully learned my lesson. Bring on the rest of my life

 

Day 4/11 of no mo, and day 30 of no porn. Feeling pretty good today, no urges, I feel like my not watching porn for so long definately helps keep the urges down. Porn, and masturbation really go hand in hand. A few times lately I have had the temptation or thoughts about watching porn, but I know if I watched it now, it would make it that much harder to abstain from mo! My brain is trying to trick me lol

 

I made the same mistake as you, man. For me at least, it was a good sign of progress, because it was my brain's way of saying "fuck, man. normal P is not an option anymore. what loopholes can I find?" Now, the loopholes part is a bad thing of course, but that's how your brain works. The reason this is a good thing is because of the "normal P is not an option" part. If it's the same thing for you, your brain has given up on getting that endorphin rush from PMO. You will likely relapse a few more times on different things from your past (**TRIGGER WARNING** I suppose ex nudes/fantasies, hentai, omegle, etc), never the same thing twice, and then start a really strong streak. This is assuming you're like me, which you might not be. Just throwing my personal experience in there. Keep it up! You can do this!

 

I feel that, bro. It's really great that you're being so honest with yourself. I'd say just make up your mind. If I were you I'd stay out of the relationship. It's important to focus on yourself before you focus on others, otherwise you might end up hurting both you and other people in the process. Heal yourself, then there will be plenty of girls throwing themselves at you. Maybe even her. If you really, really like her, feel free to keep those feelings, even use them as motivation, similar to how some guys might use a girl as motivation to go to the gym and get in shape. Then, once you're a better man, you'll have a better chance with her (or anyone else, for that matter), and you'll be able to enjoy a relationship to a fuller extent, without PMO tarnishing that love Stay strong, and I'm here if you need me. Any time.

 

1/31. Focus focus focus. And got you guys to help me too

 

Thank you for the reaction, mate. I think you have a point. Because I really managed to avoid the most disgusting stuff from my past. But I let myself down, though. But new day, new try.

 

We are here for you, brother.

 

2nd day.

I am not gonna set a specific goal this time. I don’t know if that is a good idea, but I want to destroy PMO in my life, not to get a specific amount of days.

I forgot to check in yesterday, which is good. I am feeling so positive satisified at the moment. Enjoying life and I’m trying to stay like this. Keep going guys!

 

just relapsed . Literally every little thing causes me to relapse

 

Thank you all for the kind words, you are right of course, I need tow ork on myself. That is definitely true, althuogh I need to figure out what is the best way to do that. Anyway, I still know tha PM must stop, so I continue that definitely.

 

Oh yeah? you wanna talk about a challenge? FINE I challenge everyone in NoFap to competition to see who can defeat porn not in an arrogant or disrespectful way, but a challenge of motivation to get everyone to STOP. For me it's a challenge of life and I simply just want 21 days clean to say I have broken the habit. 365 days to say that was never me so lets go!!!

 

Day 5/11 feeling good today. Feeling confidence. The first five days always seem to take the longest for me.

 

Day 2/21 days

 

Day 17 complete. Felt awesome today after struggling with urges on Day 16. Beating the urges makes you even stronger.

 

Tonight is kind of rough right now, feeling kind of lonely and bored, don’t even feel horny, but having thoughts of m just because I’m bored.