A way better life I never knew of

Masturbation is definitely out of the picture for me. I'm currently 22 years old & ive been masturbating literally every single day of my life since I could remember. Even before I hit puberty! Sometimes 3-4 times a day. Just pathetic.. I found out about nofap when I was 19, & what drew me to this brilliant community was a devastating time in my life that came out of nowhere. It all started the first time I failed to get an erection with a girl that I really loved & still love to this day. Now all my life I been a horny fucker, so i had plenty of women at my disposal. All through school I thought getting girls & looking fly was what it was all about, but I still masturbated every night faithfully even if I got pussy that night. When I was 18 I started to notice that my erections weren't as hard as they used to be & sometimes when I'd get a girl in bed it'll take a little time to get one at all. But I ignored it because I always ended up getting hard eventually. But one night I finally brought this gorgeous girl that I've been talking to for a while & we were really feeling each other, things were getting serious. in my mind I was like "I'm about to fuck the weave off her fine ass". So when I got her in the bed, she got completely naked & good God.. she had the body of of Goddess! So we get to kissing & touching, & when it came time for some good ole penetration my fuck stick was DEAD! It was so awkward because that never happened to me before & what luck, it had to happen with her. She was sad because she thought I didn't find her attractive. So we literally stop talking for a while because I was so embarrassed that I couldn't even talk to her. I was so depressed about that situation that I was kinda scared to have sex with anyone, because I thought to myself "what if I don't get hard again?" So on my depressed down time, I searched through google for hours trying to figure out why the hell is this happening to me. Of course I came across nofap & it all made sense. Over the years I've been slowly killing my sex life. So I tried & tried & tried to stop but I just couldn't if my life depended on it. When I first tried nofap, I would relapse after like 2 days & whenever I did masturbatabe i would always give myself some bullshit excuse to do it again. "Ok this is the last time" was my favorite lol. I wasted years of my life masturbating because I also noticed that I would always be tired & never wanted to go anywhere & my friends had to drag me out of the house all of the time. I ignored it because I have a laid back personality & I thought that was just me. But it's not. For a while I didn't even have sex because I was too afraid that I wouldn't get hard so I tried to save myself the embarrassment again. But my love for women wouldn't let me stay away. So I wanted to get back to my slut ways & get serious about nofap, but the furthest I could get was like day 7 or 8. I had this stupid rule that I wouldn't have sex with a girl unless I'm at least 7 days into nofap. It would work sometimes but it'll be just enough to just get by. Even tho I would get an erection it wasn't strong or I couldn't maintain it. "I'm too young for this shit" the rule wasn't getting me nowhere so I had to get myself together & try to go longer. Earlier this year I went 16 days nofap & I promise you I seen a BIG difference in my libido, erections, energy, & mood. I was so happy with myself I felt like a different person. But I still relapsed because I was supposed to have sex with a girl & halfway through fore play we ended up getting into an argument about other bitches.. I was super horny & I couldn't let that slide like that, so when I got home I masturbated & I instantly felt terrible. Back to day 1. It was really hard getting that far on nofap. The willpower it took for me to go that long without jacking off was wasted because I got mad. & I was back at a low point in my life & fapping every night, telling myself "this is the last time". I felt so disgusted of myself that I had to go on another streak. I'm currently on day 40 & I just CANT go back to that low point. I feel amazing right now. Almost every morning I wake up with cement dick, I've been happy as hell lately, & it's like I have extra energy now. I'm literally always in a good mood now, & most of the time I find myself doing things I stopped doing a long time ago. Simple things I noticed like being more playful. I used to think being playful was childish & I shouldn't do it since I'm an adult now, but fuck it, it's fun. I used to love being at home alone. My comfort zone was everything to me & I used to isolate myself from society to play video games and chill all day, & of course masturbate. Now I often get bored when I'm at home alone, & video games just aren't as fun to me as they used to be. Now whenever my friends want to go out I'm always down. Hell, I even call them to do things now. My love for women is even stronger now, I can talk to random females for hours about anything. I've always been told that I'm a down to earth guy but now women fall in love with just my conversation & the fact that I can actually listen to them talk my ear off with a genuine interest in it. And I drop dick like a killer lmao. The ladies love me, & I love them more. I gotta give credit to nofap because when I was masturbating every night I didn't give a fuck about women, they were just sex objects to me. Now I can feel my true emotions coming back to me in every way. The good & bad. Another thing I noticed is I'm having more dreams. Before the streak, I would have dreams every blue moon, I guess my brain is going back to normal. Plus I kinda missed having dreams. I have no intentions on masturbating period. Why waste my precious sperm on my hands when I can waste it on a beautiful woman's ass lol. Or use it to bring my child in this world. Im sooooo proud of myself & I feel so good about my streak that I just had to post something about it, because all of the motivational stories I've read really played a big part & helped me build up some damn willpower. I'm excited to see how far I can take this nofap streak & obtain all the great benefits from it. I feel unstoppable right now & it hasn't even been 2 months! My advice is pretty much the same as every other successful fapstronaut is to stay busy. "An empty mind is the devils workshop." & NO excuses, it's a trick that your addicted mind is trying to play on you. Don't ruin your streak & have to go back to day 1, time is so precious don't waste it. Be strong & stay consistent, it benefits the hell out of you. I want to thank the entire nofap community for giving me the motivation to get my life right. I just wish this community existed when I was younger, or if someone would've told me how bad masturbating can be to the mind & soul. Stay strong y'all, I'm rooting for ya.

 

Good job! Keep up the good work!

 

Thanks bro! Glad I can help in any way.

 

Thank you! & will do.

 

Thanks bro!

 

Pretty much just being myself. I talk to women the way I would talk to any other person, but with a little flirt. & i could give 2 shits about rejection lol. Oh & I show a genuine interest in them, ya know, kinda put the spotlight on them. They lovee that lol well most of them.

 

Thanks. & you know what, I actually thought about that. But I just love me some women lol. But im actually ready to settle down with this girl I'm seeing now tho, & I doubt abstaining from sex would be healthy in a relationship lol. Especially when she wants it just as much as I do. But hey, maybe I'll give it a try. No promises lol

 

Thanks! & I know exactly what you mean bro.

 

Thanks man! & just relax, be yourself, & don't worry about rejection. There's literally billions of other girls lol. When I was younger I used to get nervous as hell when i wanted to approach a girl, & sometimes the things I wanted to say just wouldn't come out right & id seem weird lmao. but it's all in the game & confidence. Women love a confident stand up guy. I'd get some practice in, just try to get as many numbers as you can even if you don't plan on calling them. Once you get started it'll get easier.

& Standing up for yourself is very important. Have confidence in yourself, Give respect to everybody who deserves it & demand respect in return. I know I can't beat everybody up, but I'll try.